helen
helen.

they tried to convince me to schedule a c section with my second because my first was so big and labor was so long. i said gfy and had him on the couch at home hardly an hour after the midwife arrived.

2026-06-14 19:10:02 UTC

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yes... elite mom culture is very damaging and alienating.

2026-06-14 17:33:35 UTC

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much of this is baby specific, in my opinion. a lot of the rest of it is parent specific. then circumstance... there's not one path. i think authenticity is the trait that matters most in parenting.

2026-06-14 14:51:11 UTC

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i love this. gm.

2026-06-14 14:47:55 UTC

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i answered the top, but thinking about it, i think the luxuries scale... it can be perspective.;
a really top cappuccino, a glass of wine with lunch, a trip to the gym with a sauna, a house plant... it's important to feel deserving of niceties.

2026-06-14 13:42:30 UTC

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sometimes sleep training is necessary, but never cry it out.

2026-06-14 13:41:38 UTC

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to me this was baby specific. baby led swaddling.

2026-06-13 16:49:30 UTC

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it was my unlock. it released the burden of revisiting, too - that i SHOULD. reread where i was a year ago... just doesn't ring true anymore.
anything really lovely or moving or important, i copy out to a different document and delete everything else. i just keep my daily word count.

2026-06-13 14:17:16 UTC

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😂❤️ love that for you. while that sounds more fun, i must admit to my normal being i.

2026-06-13 14:15:35 UTC

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curiosity is sort of the base of it all... i have not put self exploration into that frame before.
as i try to consider what words i would have used before right now... drive, inherent motivation, change orientation...
they lack the color offered by curiosity.

2026-06-13 12:52:02 UTC

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it' is easy to start, it is hard to do more than three days in a row?... i think figuring out what's maintainable. weekly? using prompts? discarding the words...

2026-06-13 12:47:34 UTC

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i find it difficult to maintain relationship with people who do not actively seek to improve.
i have found it difficult to maintain relationship with most people.
😬

2026-06-13 12:45:03 UTC

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i want as many children as possible. it is hard. but it is everything.
written from morning cuddles.

2026-06-13 01:35:36 UTC

good night. xx sweet dreams.
https://blossom.primal.net/2bbd42b142742ab39838959fb2b7e346eca4d46769c88bdbc551cab64241d69c.jpg

2026-06-12 00:33:47 UTC

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my dad and i are similar at the core of this. we do not have what i would consider ambition in a worldly sense.
my mom was the opposite: she was extremely driven and which made her very successful in the business world.
growing up i tried to be what my mom and what society wanted of me; i was basically a straight a student and incredibly competitive in sports.
my sisters rebelled and were not traditionally successful in school or competitions.
to me, this was the childhood dynamic of how to handle family expectations playing out.
in adulthood, i have come back to my center and realized that that stuff just does not appeal to me.. i have children and i have a garden and i have a home... “driven” is not my word.
i definitely burnt out in childhood. i saw that the route i was running was not fulfilling. the flame was artificial to me - from borrowed fuel...
both my sisters are now traditionally successful - good jobs, continue to be promoted through the ranks, and take great pride in it... for one it is clear this is completely natural. this is her living her core out in adulthood. she likes what she does, she is good at what she does, and she wants to be the best.
in the other, it is not so clear... is it learned and she is now trying to gain some mom points in adulthood? is it necessitated by lifestyle wants and the needs of existence? is this her natural state?...
i think the core burns for what brings it purpose and for me - that is not drive or ambition... it is a quiet hearth in the center of my home... but based on my family, i see it as a blend of conditioning, genetics, and circumstance. there was a timeline where i continued to deny my core - my genetics - and fought through to be SUCCESFUL. and i believe that people do that, too.

2026-06-11 23:10:18 UTC

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my take is it's a combination of genetics, childhood, and finding the thing that lights you up.
my natural flame burns low and slow. it does not measure well in the normie world of success metrics.

2026-06-10 14:02:51 UTC

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gm 🤘❤️

2026-06-06 14:35:30 UTC

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great movie... one of my favorite.

2026-06-01 22:22:14 UTC

finding today people have a lot of opinions about other people's money and i thought the whole point of bitcoin was gfy?
gfy.

2026-05-31 21:37:22 UTC

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they kind of sound like a drag... i guess that's the toxicity.
for fuckssake, justine! just care about one thing!
the neutrality brings out the toxicity

2026-05-31 21:29:00 UTC

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having a really fun time contemplating toxic neutrality.
everyone is equally stupid and gay, which makes life beautiful.
not taking sides, but taking it so far it's toxic.
only having toxic opinions on completely neutral grounds.

2026-05-31 21:12:07 UTC

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smells soooo good.

2026-05-21 21:23:58 UTC

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i would pay it as a fuck you whatever fine if they just turned off the stupid beeper in the car that complains when i am not buckled.

2026-05-19 18:12:44 UTC

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"almost literally"

2026-05-19 18:00:39 UTC

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i do not think having kids is for everyone, but i certainly think it is for more than are currently choosing that path. the true purpose of all the psyops... you will have nothing and no one and think you chose that path of your own volition.

2026-05-18 02:04:38 UTC

the fact that [what feels like] the entire protocol can get together and argue about something for a weekend is really special. this is a phase i will miss once it's gone.

2026-05-17 01:43:40 UTC

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i truly hate that question as the basis for all new conversation.

2026-05-13 14:45:38 UTC

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never tell a mother of young children you were too busy to do something.
#nevent1q…2mtn

2026-05-03 03:39:42 UTC

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as long as the garlic doesn't have to be beautiful, you cut the ends off each clove, put them in a container, and just. shake them. slowly but surely the skins just shed.

2026-05-03 03:36:53 UTC

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garlic used to really bum me out. get all sticky and frustrated... was never a source of joy 😂

2026-05-02 17:29:17 UTC

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truly something else.. i would like to try to write a character synopsis of her at some point.. i think it would be difficult, but very fun.

2026-05-02 17:21:16 UTC

every now and again i have a major before and after event in my kitchen:
i recently learned to shake garlic cloves all together in a container to get the skins off... everything is different now.

2026-05-01 14:47:23 UTC

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i love the rain. good luck out there. ❤️

2026-05-01 14:41:15 UTC

hooray, hooray! the first of may! outdoor screwing starts today!
my granny would call us and announce this to my whole family every year. she was a real gem of a human. i am forever lucky to have had her and for so long.

2026-04-29 22:45:44 UTC

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i am more sorry that i am bothered to feel i am an interruption.

2026-04-19 13:38:02 UTC

good morning, i love you.   my journaling practice has reached one year old. i found a method that works for me. and holy moly, it works for me. it has been incredible and worthwhile.
my thought patterns have improved - they are less meandering, they are more purposeful, and they more often return to a strong core after getting lost.
my self understanding has exploded - i have been able to zoom out and see patterns of stuck points throughout life..., find themes that need holding or healing..., see the narratives i relive...
my grace towards others has increased, as has my willingness to take time and space for my self and my psyche.
compassion all around!.
my thoughts, words, and actions are all more intentional.
wild. invaluable. i cannot believe how much i have learned. i am ecstatic.
i started a new year today with the added stat of minutes meditated.
let’s fucking go.

2026-04-14 20:35:52 UTC

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"do you know how hard you have to abuse a mammal to make them not have children?"

2026-04-03 17:13:17 UTC

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i don't see why he'd be so important. murder makes more sense to me.

2026-03-30 03:07:46 UTC

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love. my first favorite pokemon.

2026-03-29 23:53:28 UTC

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trash

2026-03-29 22:00:48 UTC

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love.

2026-03-19 16:22:11 UTC

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most wonderful experience.

2026-01-25 16:21:34 UTC

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i think same. that sounds about right.

2026-01-25 03:48:47 UTC

my day on nostr was pretty great... i like it here. and i love you. i understand the outside internet is burning and hell is freezing over in real life. so. thanks for everything, frands. stay safe, sane, & free.

2026-01-25 00:46:01 UTC

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🫶

2026-01-24 21:27:37 UTC

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will add it to my list.
she wrote my fffffavorite fantasy series - earthsea.

2026-01-24 20:04:04 UTC

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bunch of thugs.

2026-01-24 20:00:30 UTC

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woah cool

2026-01-24 19:51:59 UTC

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woah bunch of thugs

2026-01-24 03:32:40 UTC

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beast games.

2026-01-24 03:28:23 UTC

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what was wrong in your childhood will not be what's wrong with your children. don't try to fix your shit, listen to them and help your babies through their shit.

2026-01-24 03:24:52 UTC

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the expanse

2026-01-24 03:24:25 UTC

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peep show. seriously weird. seriously unique.

2026-01-21 02:51:14 UTC

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i'm in for lady leading everything up to that point, but i enjoyed being wildly surprised. so. guess i would say no.

2026-01-20 17:33:49 UTC

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@nprofile…4gzk

2026-01-18 21:28:54 UTC

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the conversations so good you just can't go to bed about them even though you should have hours ago.

2026-01-18 21:25:05 UTC

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the stars.

2026-01-18 20:22:04 UTC

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especially the first book

2026-01-18 20:21:53 UTC

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i feel like the high level of writing makes sense with two writers. it would constantly be edited back and forth.

2026-01-17 22:03:47 UTC

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i just learned he's a them!!

2026-01-17 22:02:08 UTC

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i'll be interested to go back to it with the deeper understanding. i don't remember everything from the show.

2026-01-17 21:41:29 UTC

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😂

2026-01-17 21:40:00 UTC

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"these people hate you." - @nprofile…22n0

2026-01-17 16:50:00 UTC

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😍 firefly!... i don't really get to watch anymore, but that's totally running to the top of my list when i have the moment to. it's been awhile...
i am still enjoying it. i really feel like i'm burning through. it is one of the few times i watched before reading and i mostly love the casting. especially amos. and will likely watch them when i finish.

2026-01-17 15:56:36 UTC

abaddon's gate.
james s. a. corey.

2026-01-14 23:30:03 UTC

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i think they get away with saying this because they know the ladies will insist.
and in my case, it was the opposite.

2026-01-14 23:28:24 UTC

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i was searching about this after i saw it and apparently it is and a number of people who wear it have no idea the name's true origin.

2026-01-14 22:45:41 UTC

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going on my list

2026-01-14 22:41:23 UTC

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ugh. my famous friends are the worst of all my friends, but the only ones you would have heard of.

2026-01-14 22:39:40 UTC

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won't do that 😂❤️

2026-01-14 17:52:38 UTC

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right? i do not know when last i wanted everyone i know to see something.

2026-01-14 17:51:46 UTC

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thank you

2026-01-14 17:45:41 UTC

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do not remember the last time the internet gave me such a gift

2026-01-14 16:50:35 UTC

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gross.

2026-01-14 00:01:19 UTC

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i scrolled by this video three or four times before watching it.
don't make the same mistake.
#nevent1q…vsrv

2026-01-13 23:46:27 UTC

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he's such a gem.

2026-01-12 15:59:55 UTC

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pancakes

2026-01-11 14:36:03 UTC

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just burning through these.

2026-01-11 14:32:08 UTC

caliban's war.
james s. a. corey.

2026-01-10 20:36:57 UTC

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i think i saw you had read it multiple times and thought i might put dune at the end of my current reading list. and i will add the bad place. i am deep into the expanse and happy to be reading something well written again. but there are very few books i read more than once. daemon was long enough ago... i feel it is prescient now and deserves it in this moment.

2026-01-10 19:52:47 UTC

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seeing it there makes me think it may be time to read it again. ahh, enjoy!

2026-01-10 19:49:43 UTC

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daemon a forever favorite

2026-01-10 19:26:31 UTC

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i meant my quote of the year. like i'll just keep coming back to it., but true enough. 😂❤️

2026-01-10 19:12:45 UTC

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quote of the year.
#nevent1q…ahwq

2026-01-10 19:03:22 UTC

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my huskys are decidedly unhappy about the lack of snow. or at least i am.

2026-01-10 16:35:20 UTC

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uhhhhhhhhhh

2026-01-10 16:02:30 UTC

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😂 i loved this movie so much growing up. one time my mom insisted i solo perform this scene for her friends.

2026-01-10 00:36:00 UTC

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uhhhhhhh

2026-01-09 22:49:16 UTC

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the highly sensitive person.

2026-01-09 21:55:03 UTC

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i do not have the personality for your level of argumentative.

2026-01-09 19:51:07 UTC

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this bears repeating:
#nevent1q…uka0

2026-01-09 19:38:37 UTC

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yikes. i was writing a thought out response thanking you for your citing of the theory of gay nazis, but questioning your premise based on "objective"... this outburst means idgaf. xoxo

2026-01-09 18:46:58 UTC

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you really lost any legs you were standing on at gay nazi...

2026-01-09 02:15:38 UTC

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same. it's so odd to me. but. bath time is sacred, so we do as he says.

2026-01-06 22:22:13 UTC

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thoughts not a crime yet.