Alex Haist

I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul. she/her/queer #ADHD #UrbanForestry #wolves #coyotes #furry #SFF #disability

Avatar: Picture of Alex, a 30s woman of Euromutt/Ashkenazi Jewish descent with short dark hair.

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2026-04-08 23:53:27 UTC

I love the friendly side brush cats do when they walk past you on the way to other business.

2026-04-02 12:46:24 UTC

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I love the porcupine bridge.

2026-03-15 20:48:49 UTC

Gracked.
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2026-03-14 16:43:55 UTC

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you get such glorious colors in your photos

2026-03-13 19:51:19 UTC

Important question: should book covers be allowed to have non-human animals on them when the books are in fact only about humans?

2026-03-10 19:44:23 UTC

Grack grack grack!
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2026-03-07 19:12:18 UTC

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I don't usually have a comment to your posts but I find them so lovely and comforting.

2026-03-07 17:04:58 UTC

The cats are good today.

2026-03-06 14:14:28 UTC

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lickable mouse mousse

2026-03-06 12:53:00 UTC

Her attempts to get me to lick her head are much worse during shedding season.
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2026-03-04 18:55:01 UTC

I went outside and found a bug. Spring is coming.
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2026-02-22 17:01:03 UTC

This is delightful fun: how far back in time can you understand English?
In a fictional travel blog, the author writes about their experience in a small town, jumping back 100 years of English each entry.
https://www.deadlanguagesociety.com/p/how-far-back-in-time-understand-english

2026-02-19 01:58:13 UTC

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Woe! Alas! Alack!

2026-02-19 01:26:22 UTC

Sammy the dog bounded out and smacked a poor young possum with a paw, causing them to play dead. Their act is super convincing to both me and her. They are fine. I will leave them some cat food as an apology.
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2026-02-12 13:04:50 UTC

One aspect of cognitive behavior therapy that's always been dicey for me is scripts; saying anything positive when I am feeling negative makes me feel gaslighted. I've had some luck with neutral scripts like "I thought about a scary thing and did not actually die," but it's been a struggle.
This morning, I hit upon scripting that feels much less threatening: "and". "I hate that my body is fragile and complicated, and it's interesting to discover the weird connections." ...

2026-02-11 12:52:44 UTC

How is the world this pretty
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2026-02-10 22:42:51 UTC

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she is such a beautiful jumper

2026-02-10 05:54:10 UTC

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you mean like a list? I guess I can almost always do lists. And aimless little posts. It's fiction narrative stuff where I lock up.

2026-02-10 05:05:45 UTC

I need to think of something so deeply unimportant and irrelevant to write that it doesn't trigger my performance anxiety. So far nothing has limboed under that bar.

2026-02-07 18:08:54 UTC

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I need to put out more sunflower seeds.

2026-02-07 18:01:55 UTC

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they are so puffed up, aren't they?!

2026-02-07 17:41:38 UTC

Winter colors
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2026-02-05 20:42:14 UTC

Borb life.
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2026-01-31 22:13:06 UTC

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may I recommend this short story to your attention, if it has not already come to your attention: "Toad Words" https://redwombatstudio.com/2014/06/26/toad-words/

2026-01-31 21:56:15 UTC

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I would be so okay with that

2026-01-31 21:11:29 UTC

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that plant wants a kiss.

2026-01-31 19:58:25 UTC

I made her favorite lap for Caturday.
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2026-01-17 18:35:04 UTC

Junco looking like a little penguin song bird in the snow.
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2026-01-12 19:58:49 UTC

Kitty of contentment.
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2026-01-12 12:11:24 UTC

Not nearly enough people in my life who I can be unapologetically gross with.

2026-01-11 13:45:38 UTC

I always feel like I'm breaking the silent Sunday pact when I make a comment on them, so it's a lot of boosts and likes instead.

2026-01-11 00:20:48 UTC

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hah, I catch on to concepts much faster than the average person, and Laurel like my creativity and sense of humor. It was so nice to be positively noticed.

2026-01-11 00:10:36 UTC

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when I was in my early twenties, a woman named Laurel, my mom's friend and an elementary school therapist, took notice of me; I'd just bounced out of my first serious adult relationship and moved back in with my parents and was feeling rather useless. She made it her business to point out things I was good at to my face, and eventually helped me get tutoring work and starting my own business. Later on, we became writing buddies at a local cafe. A hand up when I needed it desperately.

2026-01-10 22:00:39 UTC

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...does that work at all?

2026-01-10 21:39:21 UTC

My Wimsey kitty is sitting resentfully in my lap because my wife is playing Hades on my computer, and my wife's cat Harriet has taken Wimsey's heated pad.

2026-01-10 21:35:37 UTC

I have been having a pleasant experience with a search engine! This is amazing and rare. Check out maapl.net if you, too, are sick of the bullshit AI results.

2025-12-22 17:30:00 UTC

A perfect nugget of a squirrel
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2025-12-19 18:13:45 UTC

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I love your bright photos though... Such a nice break from the gray and white

2025-12-19 18:11:49 UTC

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it would be a strange December day in Massachusetts indeed

2025-11-30 13:48:41 UTC

Looking for a card with beautiful big cats, and also a card suitable for get well to a grandma. Must be able to ship to the US. Any recommendations?

2025-11-15 17:30:31 UTC

A typical #Caturday, a typical day.
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2025-11-14 19:33:57 UTC

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the worms were always waiting to save us

2025-10-28 13:50:16 UTC

Good to lie on your back outside and watch the occasional bird whisk through the sky above you.

2025-10-15 10:46:03 UTC

The world is full of strange and marvelous wonders and I am listening to the Bubble Guppies' pop song "Flightless Bird" for the 17th time this morning.

2025-10-11 16:31:11 UTC

#caturday kitten puddle. These two recently joined my parents' household and have the unpromising names of Sylvester, tabby, and Felix, tuxedo.
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2025-09-29 13:44:54 UTC

It would probably be criminal to move when I'm being cuddled on one side by a dog and a cat on the other.

2025-09-28 14:51:43 UTC

Yesss caterpillar on my arm. I love how their little marching feet tickle.
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2025-09-24 13:26:41 UTC

I love this cat and she loves me.
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2025-09-16 13:11:47 UTC

Send help. Too much love.
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2025-09-13 12:29:53 UTC

Morning chorus: squirrels and catbirds cussing out the dog.

2025-09-05 12:39:05 UTC

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I think with all the time we spent practicing to open the gates on horseback, we could have dismounted and remounted any number of times. Probably it is the better course.

2025-09-05 09:57:42 UTC

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we used to open these on horses. Always the most treacherous part of the ride. (They like to go for your knees.)

2025-08-27 12:30:20 UTC

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Update: Help has arrived.
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2025-08-27 12:22:42 UTC

Time for another round of Alex vs. Disability Paperwork, featuring Why Won't Guava Connect to a Major Medical System?

2025-08-23 11:18:54 UTC

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sitting on the beach reading Tolkien poems with @npub16lr…g3wx , getting cold, snuggling together.

2025-08-19 11:03:30 UTC

Letting my thoughts wander, I thought of how everything eats chickens, and so over time a coop must be dense with the ghosts of former foul. Chickens thus are mundanely spiritual beings; the ghosts up on ghosts are like a fog they peck their way through every moment of their lives.

2025-08-19 10:28:14 UTC

I need to hire someone to go through all my medical records (of which there are many) and put them in a form, probably a spreadsheet, coherent to the US social security administration and Massachusetts disability evaluators. Anyone meticulous have experience filing for disability in the US who would take on the job? Can discuss payment, minimum $25 an hour. #fediHire #disability

2025-08-10 12:38:44 UTC

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Bryan here asking the important questions.

2025-08-10 11:58:13 UTC

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a rare monotreme tree, hatching from eggs instead of giving birth live.

2025-08-10 11:25:43 UTC

#silentSunday
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2025-08-08 20:06:38 UTC

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The sun got a goldfinch, too.
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2025-08-08 17:36:37 UTC

House finch soaking up the sun.
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2025-08-08 12:32:40 UTC

Molting birds make me giggly with their scruffiness. This poor grosbeak, usually the height of style with black waistcoat and red cravat, reduced to this!
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2025-08-08 12:19:02 UTC

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when we were considering installing a bidet during the great toilet paper shortage of 2020, we learned that the simple version lacked a heating element. The prospect of chilly well water was not appealing in this instance.

2025-08-06 11:47:34 UTC

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I'm not always so quick on the horse with poetry, but I enjoyed this one a lot.

2025-08-05 11:36:35 UTC

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squash is so easily delicious. A drizzle of this or that and you get a whole new dish. I would take that squash.

2025-08-01 17:53:34 UTC

Caterpillars! On the blueberry bush!
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2025-08-01 16:44:21 UTC

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being in a tree is so nice when it's hot.

2025-08-01 16:26:25 UTC

Slowly finding my way back to more than dealing with minor crises and their ripples. I love my window. So many little creatures I get to see. I love this bit of posturing from a cardinal--he was staring down a goldfinch. The goldfinch ignored him.
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2025-07-24 14:22:48 UTC

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I recommend a chaser of "Grave of the Fireflies" after.

2025-07-21 21:35:08 UTC

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I do console myself that eventually there will be violets in there and there are already maple seedlings in most of them.

2025-07-21 20:42:58 UTC

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You ever feel mocked by vegetation?

2025-07-21 20:34:40 UTC

Behold my attempt to plant some seeds in planters. Take particular note of lush and vigorous plants outside the planters.
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2025-07-13 16:40:49 UTC

I admire the ability of doves to sit down and become entirely oblivious to their own peril. It seems like such a peaceful way to exist.
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2025-07-11 21:55:45 UTC

In the absence of seeds, the birds have taken to using the deck as a serenade spot. Here we have a singing house wren--the song is much bigger than the bird, as is the way of wrens.
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2025-06-15 01:56:19 UTC

Gonna be scarce again for a while. Health and watching a friend's kitties.

2025-06-11 12:02:38 UTC

Welp. No feeding the birds for a week or two. I even had to turn down the bluejay fledgling who made begging noises at me through the window, but we cannot be feeding bears.
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2025-06-07 18:38:15 UTC

Grosbeaks are having a wet tux contest out there.
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2025-06-03 22:24:35 UTC

Another floofy deck friend. She must be doing the neighborhood rounds. Time for a little break from seeding the deck.
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2025-06-03 21:31:11 UTC

Yesterday's squirrel has perfected their sploot.
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2025-06-02 20:58:33 UTC

The squirrel sploot is truly a gift of the natural world.
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2025-05-30 20:07:11 UTC

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hah! I have no idea! I was deferring to you as the fivespot expert.

2025-05-30 19:58:49 UTC

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oh okay! Like the opposite of a four leaf clover kind of.

2025-05-30 19:56:38 UTC

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...why is it a fivespot when it has four spots?

2025-05-29 23:26:41 UTC

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I think I would enjoy a journey a lot more with roast roadrunner.

2025-05-29 22:52:11 UTC

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you know this is absolutely a lie. Even in my prime, I was more enthusiastic than competent at catching fence lizards. I just want the friendship to be that good.

2025-05-29 22:40:46 UTC

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we would have roasted woodpecker in hours.

2025-05-29 21:40:05 UTC

I wish I could be friends with a coyote.

2025-05-29 11:25:38 UTC

The squirrels are becoming increasingly unafraid of me. They sit and watch me approach until I'm about 2 meters away before scurrying off. They're basically fluffy rats, so I think we have the potential to be friends.

2025-05-28 17:46:45 UTC

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it's such subtle gradations of red. I spend a lot of time staring at her.

2025-05-28 10:26:05 UTC

When I put out birdseed first thing in the morning, I sing out "Birds, birds, birds!" Our Lady of Sitting knows this, and she was first to arrive today.
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2025-05-27 21:26:05 UTC

A question for other disabled people, if you feel up to answering: What keeps you going?

2025-05-27 11:28:18 UTC

Squirrel with a unique tail.
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2025-05-23 22:31:50 UTC

Our Lady of Sitting, the one-legged cardinal who has been visiting my deck for the last year or two, continues to be a regular at the sunflower seed bar.
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2025-05-21 12:16:54 UTC

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those extraordinary patterns on their wings

2025-05-21 11:48:19 UTC

I am bopping Samarkar the dog on her haunches with a piece of cardboard and whispering "bad dog! Bad bad dog!" as she rips up a cardboard box, and I fear that I may be in a BDSM relationship with my actual pet.

2025-05-13 15:45:16 UTC

I'm still on a physical health break from mastodon but I had to share this bird right now. They were attacking the window! Clinging to the window frame and thumping the glass with their beak!
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2025-05-06 22:41:47 UTC

The whippoorwill has returned. We are in for a month of loudly cooed romantic aspirations throughout the night. #birdCallOut

2025-05-06 12:47:23 UTC

hello there, small friend.
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2025-05-05 14:42:22 UTC

Our Lady of Sitting is having a trying day. She does not wish to sit on a wet surface, and so she stands.
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