Comte de Sats Germain on Nostr: Yeah, bitcoin definitely serves up a piece of humble pie... But that is the right ...

Yeah, bitcoin definitely serves up a piece of humble pie... But that is the right message for people at a certain stage of life. I majored in econ in college, so I was sure I understood econ better than the people I was hearing about it from. The opportunity cost of my pride was in the ballpark of a few billion dollars - I had read the white paper and scoffed in 2009. I went around travelling instead.

Dying... Well, I didn't go to heaven. I was tortured. I didn't know it wasn't in this world. I was told quite a while later that I had died briefly, but I was already in a hospital so I guess they did their thing. The torturers appeared to be doctors, but the procedure was absurd and had nothing to do with my being there - they were drilling into my neck. This couldn't have been real because there was no reason to do that, and they would have had me under anesthesia if they did. And the time matches up. I thought it was real for a long time, and I couldn't compute it. Well, "real" has a complex meaning in this case.

Prior to that, I had only been kinda vaguely Christian, so more like a team player but without even enough understanding to claim to be Christian. And it still took years after that to start to take an interest. What really caused the change in me was seeing what China is like (good and bad, but mostly a pit of nihilism) and coming back to the US and seeing how much worse it got while I was gone, and hearing a few things Jesus said - knowing a tree by its fruits, and the truth will set you free. And then I took that vaccine, because I was still letting sin dictate my thinking - sin traps you in compromise. The way I see it is, its a wounded or diseased state of your spirit, where the wound specifically is a superimposition of ego, aggravated by ignorance. And this is why I formulate "faith" as knowledge * disciple (but I usually say motivation because its more positive). Anyways, after the vaccine, I got really sick. I couldn't breathe, got chest pains, blood pressure went up to heart attack zone, and my heart started doing weird things, like beating extremely slowly (caught it at 30 BPM on my finger device, which was after moving to put it on), or other times beating extremely fast for no reason. That's how I woke up this morning, btw. So one night, I was laying there absolutely convinced I was about to die, in pain, terrified out of my mind, and I prayed... And this is the part that feels really personal, so I'll skip to results - I started getting better. I still have problems, like the weirdness with my heart this morning, but that was the moment that things changed.

I don't even remember what I'm responding to. Thanks for reading my book, lol. Oh! I also wanted to say that there's an irony in seeing team Christians as hypocrites. You have to realize that if you claim to be a Christian, you're going to be a hypocrite, no matter how much you try to live up to it. So, I've been a hypocrite in pointing at team Christians, while I'm also imperfect. But I still am annoyed with them, so I just have to live with it.