BluPup DeerPup

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Howdy! I'm a 35 going on 3 Deerpup. I post stupid babyfur stuff! I'm an IT Professional by trade. AI/ML/Data nerd. Weather geek. Disney fan.

Authentic little through and through! ♡ Been this way since 4! Happy to share, grow, crinkle & learn with everyone! Bird-site refugee. Now on Cubhub <3!

I am sex positive! No hate, no judgement!
#pawpatrolfan #blueylife #gowatchlionguard #linuxuser

Sona: Hybrid (Deer/Wolfpup)
Stuff: Bigender || Bisexual || Any Pronouns || No-Rp || DM/PM friendly || In a relationship
I Will Post: diapers, babyfurs, furries, chastity, cannabis use, nerdy tech stuff, and everyday life
I Won't Post: politics, religion, or gore
CW Tags I Use: rl diaper(s), weed, chastity, medical, depression, anxiety, messy diaper, nudity, NSFW lyrics
Other Handles: @BluPup on Telegram || blupup on FA || BluPup DeerPup (npub14u7…t8pt) on Twitter

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2026-04-18 17:57:31 UTC

I hate the way burned weed smells and tastes. I really spoiled the hell out of myself when I started out on a dry herb vape.

2026-04-07 07:40:35 UTC

I may have a slightly unhealthy obsession with diaper covers.

2026-04-07 01:37:41 UTC

My power as an adult comes from the fact that I'm not and instead surround myself with kindergarten shit that constantly reminds me of the basics in human decency.
I'm starting to think preschool should be just reimplemented every 20 years or so to everyone lol

2026-04-04 11:01:06 UTC

normalize falling asleep on discord with your friends.

2026-04-04 03:47:22 UTC

My attention is so fucking fried dude. I'm cooked.
The way I watch movies now is to watching 10 minutes, then go watch 10 minutes of a youtube video, then watch a few short videos, and then repeat.

2026-03-26 23:27:23 UTC

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indeed. I detest the idea of the internet being accessible via a single codebase propogated by a single company.
Also I just really like Zen dammit. It's pretty and its clean and it has all the snap and cleanliness I'd want from chrome anyways. If anything it's proven to me that the problem with Firefox is just Mozilla and nothing else. If Zen as a tiny team can smack together something that feels this polished then honestly mozilla just has little to no excuse imo. Thank everything for open source.

2026-03-26 22:46:31 UTC

I will happily shill for zen browser and the zen team any day of the week.
If you haven't given Zen a shot you should. Vertical tabs were weird at first but genuinely changed my life.

2026-03-25 01:39:54 UTC

well... its was expensive... $996.00 - but four new brake rotors and four new brake pads.
Yes it needed it. No its not my fault.
Its a 2013 Dodge Challenger at 75k miles - it was just that time.

2026-03-23 23:30:24 UTC

okay fine - I switch to actual boosters.
at this point its not like I'm saving money with the baby diaper hack anymore.

2026-03-22 16:52:18 UTC

Bubblegum scented diapers have to be the most fucking cursed shit. Sounds awful.

2026-03-19 17:16:03 UTC

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yes indeed! Apparently not the right ones though I suppose.

2026-03-16 20:31:17 UTC

I need to go find some more folks to follow and spice up my timeline. Its too quiet lol.

2026-03-16 20:29:41 UTC

IDK who needs to hear this but:
If you're wearing diapers - you wear diapers :3
You should own it. You don't have to be 24/7 to be someone who wears diapers. If you wear them - you wear them.

2026-03-15 02:58:35 UTC

I know I'm sick when I literally have just not even wanted cannabis. I've maybe had one whole bowl in the last 25 hours and I'm used to 4 a day.

2026-03-02 10:25:09 UTC

My fetishes can all pretty much be summed up by the phrase "you're not ready yet".

2026-02-28 01:03:59 UTC

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I've considered these before but I feel like I wouldn't use it because I'm also very picky about being smooth. I'm also kinda scared of getting nipped by one of these things as the few times I've used any mechanical razor I've been nipped because of how my hair is.

2026-02-28 00:16:00 UTC

Also its been like 2 weeks since I've done a full-body shave and I feel kinda gross but I just can't bring myself to spend the time to do the shaving because it takes so much time and is just so annoying. If only I could find someway to just redirect all my dumb body hair to my head.

2026-02-28 00:14:44 UTC

I went to start a diaper/chastity session the other night but my everything just wasn't feeling it. Kinda wild. It's been about 8 weeks. Normally I'm very much so needing it at this point.
Kinda makes me suspect the next session is gonna be long-form. Usually my session lengths are similar in length to the amount of time in between. So if it's been 2 months since last time I'm suspecting about the same the next time it strikes. Means I should probably stock up @.@

2026-02-28 00:08:11 UTC

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If you've ever sent it to me or I've ever seen you write it - know that, in my head, you are cussing up a storm ;)

2026-02-28 00:04:08 UTC

Did this person really just state that ofc means "of course"?
I hope they were just being polite because there's a whole expletive in there you missed.

2026-02-27 04:59:09 UTC

People who sleep in silence are a different breed I swear.
If I'm not hearing my inner thoughts berate me to death then I'm physically hearing the consequences of their existence manifest as buzzing in my brain.
Give me the crickets and the thunder.

2026-02-21 09:56:49 UTC

Fucking hell... I have spent the past 8 hours just fucking with Projectivy Launcher, Arial Views, Overflight, and a photo screensaver app just *trying* to get things to look like I want.
The result.
It kinda looks about the same..... but now it crashes randomly!
and also I have diaperbutts back on my screen again now that I can load from local storage.
I think I've outgrown the 20$ ONN 4k... waiting now for the 4k pro 2.

2026-02-13 20:37:26 UTC

I like to imagine DNF stands for:
Do. Not. Fuck.
As in... do not fuck my upgrade.
it usually doesn't.
#linux #dnf #fedora

2026-02-11 05:34:36 UTC

Ugh... can't tell if the ONN Pro 4k box is selling out because walmart is about to put out a new version or if its selling out because Amazon is a dumbass and killed straight forward pirating on the firestick.
I wanted to get a refresh so that I can load a custom screensaver pointed towards some art offline but now I'm stuck in permanent indecision because of this lmfao....

2026-02-11 05:32:04 UTC

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I just have lights and some outlets at the moment. Nothing fancy. And yeah we have a typical 2 story suburban home.

2026-02-11 05:29:26 UTC

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I just mean if you find cool stuff don't worry about what platform its on just chuck it my way - I'll find a way to make it work if I want it bad enough.

2026-02-11 05:02:12 UTC

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I have a Google Home, but I can make things translate if necessary so it doesn't really matter. Just if you find anything nifty is all :3

2026-02-11 04:45:19 UTC

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I've been looking at doing some stuff with mine as well. If you find anything nifty beyond the basic doorbells, lights, and outlets lemme know! I've because I've been hunting around!

2026-02-11 04:41:29 UTC

Good grief hooligan chase just can't miss.

2026-02-05 04:53:38 UTC

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sent dm :3

2026-02-05 03:32:57 UTC

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Yeah I also have the recursive DNS setup with pihole lol. I have mine setup to be opt-in via dns though so I can whitelist some devices. But also I'm insane and signed over my soul & privacy a long time ago to google so it is what it is. I don't mind the tracking and ads as much as I mind not having any control over it.

2026-02-05 03:00:55 UTC

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I recently paired down most of my subscription services to the stuff I absolutely use every day so I feel you on that front! I've still got paramount+ for a bit but most of my stuff comes from iptv stuff these days tbh. Ever since I found out I could get nick jr and disney jr proper on my tv I've just been doing that along with stuff like pluto and tubi lol.

2026-02-05 02:25:15 UTC

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I really love the movies. They have their own thing going on kinda. I'm fairly caught up. I believe I'm mostly up to season Season 8 at this point but I've also secretly been watching Rubble & Crew as well because its a vibe and Wheeler is too cute a character >.<

2026-02-05 01:51:38 UTC

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I'm very glad that someone else has finally said it.

2026-02-05 01:49:59 UTC

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fair! and yeah... They applied the movie and rubble and crew redesigns. I think the glimpse that I just caught on the tv was actually from rubble and crew but it made me remember all the same.

2026-02-05 01:46:18 UTC

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look what they did to my boy 😭
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/116/015/494/689/989/116/original/3da6831fea4fce11.png

2026-02-05 01:36:05 UTC

excuse me but why the fuck does Ryder look like a fucking cocomelon character now?

2026-02-02 14:46:03 UTC

It seems like I've kinda hit a bit of steady pattern now where I wind up caging up for about 2-3 weeks, diapering up while not at work, and just generally getting it all out of my system and then I sort of stop for about a month and then repeat.
Its not entirely bad. I sorta miss being a little more regularly engaged but its also likely that this is like... just a phase in my life that'll change again as time goes on so I'm just enjoying the general, predictable schedule for the time being I suppose.

2026-02-02 14:42:19 UTC

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Oh yeah I don't really do organized religion. I grew up attending a southern baptist church and it was chill up until I was like 10 and then we got some new preacher that started all that hellfire and brimstone shit and I immediately recoiled - and then recoiled further when I saw that no one else was.
Its really hard to explain my belief system to people because I'm not like... a member of any particular, established group. My belief system is ENTIRELY my own and entirely of my own doing and celebrates diversity as a core principle. It's kinda a mish-mash between Cherokee, Christian, Buddhist, Hinduism, and Judaism with some Norse and Wiccan thrown in.
I'm genuinely a zebra haha

2026-02-02 02:49:42 UTC

I should really spend some time making my finance spreadsheet actually LOOK nicer instead of just function nicer but I can't stop making report crazy shit to me.
Like... I can now break down how much I spend on dumb slushes from sonic...
...fuck.

2026-02-02 02:46:03 UTC

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basically... If I respect your lack of religion, please respect my not lack of one. I don't freak out and jump on people when they argue against the existence of a higher power so I don't think that its that much to ask really for people not to jump on me for arguing for the existence of - especially since I am never, ever against other belief systems. I have no interest in converting others - atheists should stop feeling that way about me.

2026-02-02 02:41:45 UTC

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This was in deference to me basically bringing up reincarnation in a conversation and then having 3 people jump on me immediately and tell me its a fake hoax and how I'm stupid for believing it etc etc...

2026-02-02 02:32:20 UTC

I get that you aren't religious. I respect that - but at least give the same level of respect back in turn.

2026-01-28 19:01:52 UTC

No Microslop, I don't want a free trial of Microsoft 365 - in fact, I don't think I ever want a trial for any of your software ever again. You literally sold me a backup service and then when it held my files hostage, told me it wasn't a backup service.
fuck you and everything you stand for. I can't wait for valve to you to the ground.

2026-01-28 06:04:31 UTC

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Basically little stuff is like 15% mayyyyyybe 20% of my personality. The rest of me is... Idk I feel like the rest of me is just very incongruent with most everyone else in the fandom. Maybe I've just not met enough. All I know is I always feel like I have to censor myself around fellow babs whereas I don't feel like that around my core friend group who are babs but know I am one.

2026-01-28 06:01:25 UTC

Sometimes I feel like I'm basically a normie compared to all the other babs. I pad up and kink out maybe up to a week at a time once every month to two months... And also I'm terrible at interacting in the community because I'm just so inconsistent with the babyfur thing. It might also be because I'm very opinionated and stubborn. Is what it is I guess.

2026-01-27 22:16:04 UTC

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Oh... yeah I guess the weird... "hey its hanging on a black screen for 90 seconds..." might cause normal people to become impatient and then reboot... which would kill things. TBF I just let mine do the thing the first time and when I realized it just too an extra 90 seconds or so because reasons then I just started going and making coffee or something while it booted because I know its gonna happen and I know when its going to happen lol.
Regardless that should be taken care of here shortly. Nvidia drivers have been getting better and while wayland kinda jumbled things up for a bit, now that Xorg is pretty much in maintenance only at this point the support for wayland has only been getting better. Also while ubuntu HAS a dedicated driver installer, its a liar. It will list 3 separate drivers, all of which are fairly non-descript and only one of them doesn't result in nuclear annihilation of your system. I feel like I recall Fedora KDE having a similar kind of thing baked into Discover but I could also be wrong. My current install, while working, is hosed the moment I go to run an update so I've been stuck on Windows 11 until I can fix it.

2026-01-27 03:59:32 UTC

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i've literally never had a single issue with nvidia drivers inside of Fedora - at least for KDE spin. Maybe I'm just stupid lucky but I've noticed that most of the subreddit seems to share my opinion as well.
I used the RPM Fusion method and well... I install fedora, I add the repository, I hit update, and I reboot... It's been transparent for me for the most part.
Also Ubuntu is shit now and no one should ever touch it as a first distro - just my 2 cents though.
Mint is... fine. It's mint. If you like it you like it - if you don't, you don't and you move on. Debian is prefers stability too much for it to be a recommendation for any beginner imo... also, if you ask for help and haven't bothered to learn 'the debian way" then be prepared for an angry mob (aka not beginner friendly). Zorin is chill - probably one of the better recs but it does need a paid license to enjoy it to the fullest - imo at least.
Bazzite and the other immutable based distros are super good as long as people don't really want to use anything other than web browsers, maybe kdenlive, and steam. The second you want to install anything that's not a flatpak or do some dev work that requires file system interaction outside of /home - your nightmare begins.
I've stuck my mother and everyone else I know on Fedora KDE. Its relatively stable and doesn't try to niche itself so hard into one thing that it alienates other possibilities. Most everyone I've stuck on it has stuck with it and whenever I see videos of people trying linux and hating it - they usually stop hating it the second they try out Fedora. YMMV though.

2026-01-21 22:22:57 UTC

item cost: 249.99
Reviewers:
"Less than 250 dollars!"
Me:
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/115/935/423/232/236/489/original/4833fd9db2bb7ae3.mp4

2026-01-20 06:31:35 UTC

I am so sick of people misusing the phrase "vibe-coding".
Vibe-coding is relying ENTIRELY on generative-ai to create your application. You create, modify, build, push changes to and from, etc etc ALL by chatting with a bot.
It does NOT mean "I used an AI to assist me in coding this". If you are working with gemini in antigravity or copilot in vscode but you are WRITING CODE - you are not "vibe-coding". Stop calling it that.

2026-01-14 12:00:22 UTC

This does not have a title yet though it will eventually. This is what I worked on for a majority of the night.
#Music #newmusic #ebm #bass #vocals
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/115/893/324/330/051/637/original/b014ead19fef21a3.mp3

2026-01-09 00:15:50 UTC

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Yeah I know. I've been looking at one for a while now but I just don't have the countertop space lmfao. Eventually I'll figure out how to wedge one in.

2026-01-09 00:15:00 UTC

*sigh*
when you say "AI-driven networking" on your router... do you mean LLM driven or Algorithmically driven because it matters.
Because you see, only one of them can literally decide it's having a bad day... and its not the algorithm.

2026-01-06 00:30:43 UTC

I'm so helplessly addicted to giant, dirt cheap slushes that my local sonic now knows me on a first name basis and becomes concerned when they do not see me for more than 2 days.
unsure if problem.
send slush-machine.

2025-12-16 08:16:52 UTC

I'm working into OT this week. Pretty sure I was in or borderline in OT last week. I'll be borderline OT next week if my schedule holds.
I love the money and the appreciation .
I just wish my body returned the favor q.q

2025-11-29 07:31:11 UTC

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I'm just a boring baby now so idk

2025-11-29 07:30:53 UTC

Give us this day our daily taco bell.

2025-11-27 05:23:21 UTC

I used to do cool things

2025-11-02 06:26:56 UTC

Worked on this a bit this evening. Far from finished but its a neat little house track and I like where its going so I wanted to share some of my progress on it because I realized recently that I basically just don't ever share any of my music hardly anymore so I need to get better at that.
So here - WIP, no title.
#unfinishedmusic #housemusic #independantartist #music #electronicmusic
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/115/478/675/357/839/112/original/a8271e42f17c13e4.mp3

2025-10-30 20:39:40 UTC

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this is kinda just my current room lol. Still working on the fairy lights and tent... 🔜

2025-10-30 18:36:47 UTC

It takes a lot to unchill me - but if you do... god help you because I don't sleep.

2025-10-30 18:35:03 UTC

I need to make it so whenever I finish a task at work it plays a satisfying noise and makes a number go up so my stupid monkey brain will clap and laugh at boring work shit.

2025-10-29 03:39:53 UTC

Also I've become a normie for a bit x3
basically haven't been diapered except a time or two in like 3-4 months. Just been working constantly and trying to juggle life lol.

2025-10-29 03:31:26 UTC

Honestly? Aeropress coffee is pretty good actually once you get the hang of it. Color me impressed.

2025-10-14 23:02:35 UTC

Man today's just dragging onnnnnnnn

2025-10-12 18:53:55 UTC

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*excited noises*

2025-10-12 18:53:25 UTC

my new question before buying anything from anyone:
yes but how do I fix it when it breaks? :^)

2025-10-09 00:03:38 UTC

Also I ordered the Galaxy Tab A9+ in the 128GB/8GB variant. Its probably a stupid purchase but I've been interested in exploring how a tablet might actually work for me. The A9+ isn't very powerful generally, but also I don't tend to use my laptop for especially demanding tasks when I'm out and about anyways so I'm curious to see if something like a lower spec device might be just the ticket for me.
I mean I sorta initially bought it just to play call of duty mobile and not destroy my phone because of it - but the more I've looked at it the more I've kinda started to think about tablets a little more like a "better netbook" and not like a big awkward screen that doesn't really fit into any use case.

2025-10-08 23:59:41 UTC

Okay so I've fixed my mothers laptop.
I think it was a UEFI/Secure Boot issue with the system failing due to a key mismatch. I reset the key store and reset the bios back to stock entirely and it showed up finally... which means that fedora pushed an update that somehow updated the keys of the internal ssd incorrectly and caused a mismatch......... which is fucking bullshit. Secure boot is fucking trash and is only a thing because Microsoft tried to EEE the fucking desktop OS market a little over a decade ago. It's literally just another onion layer for DiD - which, fair, is another layer... but god damned the tradeoff in fucking end user frustration isn't worth the benefit it provides imho... at least not the way its currently used/implemented.... but I'm just a nobody so I guess I'm the idiot.
TL;DR: Secure boot is trash and anyone defending it has never had to deal with it fucking up.

2025-10-05 04:32:05 UTC

My mothers nvme drive decided to unalive itself tonight - at least that's my assumption. If I boot to uefi I can see it in the boot order but also it starts to boot and then... fails - can't find the disk. I mounted a live USB and ran lspci and nothing. Ran the partition manager and the only thing showing up is the Zram and the USB so I'm fairly certain its a dead drive.
Just trying to figure out if I want to order an nvme enclosure to test it out before buying a new nvme drive or if I just want to go ahead and get another one.

2025-10-04 21:18:46 UTC

man call of duty is really just on a mission to end itself.
If they'd made that shit f2p like 6 years ago it would have rivaled fortnite - but instead they decide to charge more money, with extra money on top for dessert.

2025-10-02 02:00:34 UTC

Been using Google Keep to keep track of some expenses the past month and last night, for October, I finally decided to sit down and do a proper spreadsheet. It's so nice not having to do math constantly or do tax calculations... shit just does it for me.
I'm an idiot for not having done this in the first place lol.

2025-09-27 03:29:29 UTC

I got super into call of duty mobile lmao. I didn't realize how good the mobile games had gotten. Genuinely looking at a tablet to offload the game from my phone lol.
I actually got pretty decent with the touch controls too. I even switched into the 4-finger claw style that all the really good folks supposedly used and spent a few days tweaking my hud.
I'm not as good as keyboard and mouse yet - but I'm actually better than my controller gameplay which is awesome.

2025-09-27 03:25:36 UTC

Gesture navigation is not that bad and frees up a lot more content real-estate on your screen than you think. I hated the idea and tried it and literally learned it in 3 days and was at home in a week. Don't be scared to try new stuff!

2025-09-23 00:09:12 UTC

I should post more often but I'm too lazy lol. Been working a lot so usually just tired.

2025-09-02 05:05:18 UTC

This deserves better artwork and I will do so but for now I kinda just want to share it.
This is a very mellow tune with a lot of pads and reverb. I crafted it using a reference image, something I've been having a lot of success with right lately for musical inspiration.
Anyways - I was trying to capture a vibe I've been having in my dreams. I think I succeeded at least in part here.
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/115/132/957/165/899/977/original/bed885f129af0222.mp3

2025-08-23 02:42:31 UTC

fuck. Its a new moon. literally on the nose.
I should have realized when I felt as bad as I did. Don't mind me. My emotional state is going haywire thanks to the godforsaken moon phase. Don't ask - I couldn't explain if I wanted.

2025-08-23 01:06:11 UTC

Look this is simple...
you have a shitty rule - I'm not going to follow it. It's that simple.
Laws, rules, whatever... if it sucks I'm not going to follow it. I don't care who you are, what the rule is for, nothing. I don't give a shit. I'm not following it if it makes my life shittier.
If your distraught over it, go kick rocks. :)

2025-08-23 01:02:39 UTC

Actually just had my first instance of a program fucking up that a simple reinstall just fixed.
Believe it or not, despite how many times I've done that for IT work, it's literally the first time that's ever actually solved the issue.

2025-08-22 23:21:11 UTC

There better never be a person who tells me I'm a wuss for my pain tolerance because its through the damn roof because of my back pain.
The fact that I can stand and carry a conversation on and then go and work while my pain is at a fucking constant 5-7/10 is testament to that.
And if anyone wonders why I break down instantly and can't fucking handle "tiny" things a lot of the time, its because I'm in pain 24/7 and your tiny little problem is a feather on 10 billion other feathers. I don't have it in me anymore. I'm tired. I'm angry. I'm sad. And nothing helps and no one helps. I can do nothing to make myself feel safe so my body regulates as though it is in danger 24/7.
I'm sick of it and people telling me "that's just life" aren't helping... because if this shit is "life" - get me out.

2025-08-17 02:40:06 UTC

this may sound stupid but... I just came to a realization that the reason I'm so hesitant and spooked of reinstalls and whatnot right lately is because of the data that I have on them and the idea of either losing or having to restore from backup just to get back to okay is terrifying to me...
...so... I'm actually now kinda toying with the idea of building a NAS and mapping it so that ALL of my data goes to that and only my OS's are installed locally. Like, have /home/ on my NAS for example.
That would mean that I could just wipe the drive and reinstall and have ALL my data just be there all the same. I think I might work on that idea a little bit. Would be nice not having to worry about data loss constantly. Mild PTSD from having a really important drive brick itself about 7 or 8 years ago.

2025-08-16 02:20:03 UTC

sorry for rant - friend of mine got yelled at by a manager I'm somewhat convinced is a bab themselves and I can't help but be immediately reminded of all the chats that I'm in where I just REFUSE to talk because the rules list is the size of a walgreens receipt and about as clear as a fucking budget reconciliation bill.
Seriously - its your chats so you can do what you like - but fuck participating in your shitty shit when your rules list is just so intangible and long. It means you can do whatever you like and I don't care about the reasoning for it: there is ZERO reason good enough to have rules that amorphous and vague. ZERO. ZILCH. NADA.
anyways....... /rant

2025-08-16 02:13:27 UTC

Also, if you're a manager and you pull this passive aggressive bullshit on the clock whenever you're trying to deal with another employee - just smack yourself please. No one likes you when you do that and it creates an environment of malcontent and distrust. You're the problem creating more problems basically.
Be direct about your issues or go the hell away.

2025-08-16 02:11:05 UTC

i'm starting to realize that the difference between me and most other people in this fandom is that I don't have a bug up my ass 24/7 and I don't give a single fuck what you say or do for the most part.
My moderation style is this: You beef with someone, you do it quickly or somewhere quiet. Anyone who is shit will get bullied out and everyone else can take a joke enough to understand the difference between right and wrong.
Basically - I let people handle themselves. I don't need to molly-coddle you and if I do, you don't belong in one of my groups. I have 3 rules. Dont cheat, don't spread illegal shit, and don't be a pure asshole.
The folks around me on the other hand. Man... rules for this. rules for that. Passive aggressive bullshit all 'round. No thanks. Simple rules = straightforward moderation.

2025-08-13 02:05:30 UTC

I literally can't watch shit with emotional confrontations anymore. I guess too much trauma or something but its literally so uncomfortable for me that if I'm forced to sit through it I'll have borderline PTSD-like attacks. I just have to fucking take my headphones off and zone out for 5 minutes or something while shit like that is happening in a movie or a tv show or I can't actually manage to watch it. It's really, really annoying.

2025-08-13 01:55:33 UTC

Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for high-
Reachin' for higher grounnnnd~.....

2025-08-12 08:40:40 UTC

Wound up watching s3 of moral orel with friends. I had no idea it went that hard. Changed my entire opinion of that show.

2025-08-10 02:43:50 UTC

I'm adding another line to my steam bio:
If your game requires modifications to my bios to work -> It sucks.

2025-08-06 02:29:02 UTC

I've had this godhandusa song stuck in my head all day lmfao.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPOuUvZnnD0

2025-08-05 05:45:34 UTC

I didn't share this here yet? :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzduuS3eNVo&si=7EJb0WxCpTVSh0Fs

2025-08-05 05:42:40 UTC

Channel Simulator lives.
It now generates an RTP stream, offers a link to it and plays a video file up to a designated, file-stored timestamp and then plays an assortment of commercials between a minimum and maximum value and then returns to the episode when it is finished with the commercial segment.
Is it the coolest fucking thing in the world? yes.
Is the code made of spaghet? yes.
do i care?
......... yes :( haha.
anyways - can't wait to show it off a little bit soon. Once I get it into a proper alpha state my hope is to try to replicate 2 different stations: old PBS Kids circa random weekday summer 1998 and any type of broadcast from Sprout circa 2007 or 2008. Can't wait.
(and yes I know fieldstation42 exists - I do this for me)

2025-08-02 12:04:25 UTC

My station is so unhinged and I love it.
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/114/959/073/212/185/922/original/c1cf245513a6aa54.png

2025-08-02 11:29:28 UTC

It's also been like over a month since I've been chaste, padded, dressed up, or been little in any way outside of drifting off to sleep.
Probably not super healthy me mentally tbh...

2025-08-02 11:27:33 UTC

I literally felt my brain just shut down a little while ago... And by a little while ago I mean like 10 hours ago...
I've just been mindlessly watching YouTube, scrolling random shit on my phone, eating candy, and getting stoned for like 10 hours.
On one hand I hate myself...
On the other hand... Fuck it. Lol.

2025-07-26 01:23:46 UTC

If you do 45 in a 55 I am going to ride your ass like a shit stain and no you have no right to bitch.
Learn how to drive.

2025-07-24 02:51:47 UTC

I got reinspired to work on channel simulator after considering the possibility that the same tech could also be used to power recreations of old radio broadcasts...
so now we're back to working and this time I'm also gonna include that as a goal.

2025-07-23 22:39:37 UTC

I hate that I just can't manage to watch Bluey all that much. I'm just too emotionally damaged as a person I think. Bluey drives me to tears EVERY fucking episode. There is not a single episode that comes on that doesn't feel like its driving a rusty knife right through my heart. Kinda sucks - but also it's nice knowing that there's a show out there that's actually conveying the real magic of youth. I just wish I could actually watch it without having an emotional breakdown every time.

2025-07-23 22:36:15 UTC

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If its Ubuntu it's most likely EXT4 for the underlying system as I believe that's the default they use unless they've done something new in the past 3 years (which is totally possible). Fedora has been the odd one out lately as it has been defaulting to BTRFS for its filesystem for a few versions now. Really threw me for a loop to be quite frank since I've not the slightest clue about the BTRFS filesystem but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ you have to learn somehow so I just rolled with it. Been solid so far.

2025-07-23 22:33:12 UTC

I'm so proud of my steam profile.
https://media.cubhub.social/media_attachments/files/114/904/922/946/568/061/original/4934e393b3d9d42c.png

2025-07-23 21:52:28 UTC

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Perfect! That's definitely the correct way of going about it. As a heads up btw, NTFS is super useful if you want to share files between other PC's not running linux, but if you ever just want to solely use a drive under linux I'd suggest EXT4 as it has way better longevity and is healthier for the drive in my opinion (NTFS fragments worse than EXT4). You can't see those drives under windows without some special software though so that advice is only if you ever just go linux only. 🐧