solarpunk urban mystic on my best days,
bedridden anxious mess at my worst

perennial interests:
gardening, fermentation, foraging, sailing, climbing, cycling, generative systems, privacy, philosophy, communication, pre-agricultural history, self hosting, programming, ambient / industrial music, sustainability, literature, poetry, reflection, kindness, understanding, occultism

I love meeting new people! DMs open, email or matrix preferred

website: https://anish.lakhwara.com
pronouns: they/he
matrix: अनीश (npub13df…9njz):sealight.xyz

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Hell yeah i love this game
That's Jie Quan yeah? or was he 4th and 5th was the dream lady? I played through that game pretty much non stop until i beat it so my memory is a little hazy

2024-12-20 18:50:31 UTC

I'm gonna be in #bangalore #india for the holidays and would love to meet people I know from the internet.
If youre in town, hit me up :) lets hang out!

2024-11-16 10:07:21 UTC

i signed up for a steam account for the first time a couple months ago
its so thoroughly fucked, and ive been incapable of making a single purchase (i really want(ed?) a steam deck)
ive taken the ongoing months long struggle and resulting inability to purchase one as a sign from the universe that i shouldn't get one
good karma, i feel
a steam deck would absolutely ruin my life

2024-10-25 07:29:47 UTC

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yeah open hardware is kinda their thing and then they pivoted to AI.
The monocle was extremely compelling for this reason
https://docs.brilliant.xyz/monocle/hardware/
ultimately its a full computer and fairly difficult to do anything with, not a display you can use for your regular small computer

2024-10-23 05:18:34 UTC

remember how yesterday i was asking about frontend Javascript stuff? today I'm overwhelmed by it...
im not cut out for this, the browser is tougj distributed system
i looked into vanilla js becauee maybe that'd be easier.
it certainly doesnt seem so...
i think i may just go with react 😩 i should swallow my pride and ship, but i also want to have fun
why is frontend so hard? 😔
mad respect to frontend devs, yall amazing

2024-09-06 20:18:59 UTC

my toxic trait is never knowing the author/creator of things i love/read about (im really bad at names too)

2024-08-28 04:08:36 UTC

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if you're a computer weirdo, i'd love to hear your stories about the maintaince burden of supporting a life on open source. how much time do you spend configuring tools and services, vs paying for SaaS and other software. do you still ROM your phone? Jailbreak your kindles/kobos? Are you happy with your balance? how do you decide what to adopt or what to pay for?

2024-08-28 04:06:53 UTC

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*sigh*
i don't know, fedi.
so much of my identity is wrapped up with weird computer esoterica that i cant even really imagine what my life would be like. i'd give up all my computers and just start again. that's really scary to me. that it will still take me a long time to get productive again, with whatever new tools i choose. and then i'd also have to give up on any semblance of privacy, mostly give up on FOSS, and be beholden to mega corps i despise

2024-08-28 03:54:30 UTC

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I worry that I'd be bored, but I feel like there's still things that I could contribute to if I wanted. I could possibly help other people, instead of just helping myself with my own self hosting. I could get rid of my own burden, and just choose to pay, I can certainly afford to.
maybe contribute to some actually meaningful software programs? Mapeo comes to mind, I'm sure there are a few others that I may be useful for.
Or I could do other things. Get into climbing more seriously, or music

2024-08-28 03:51:51 UTC

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Just be normal computer user that has stuff work.
Maybe then I'd feel more productive, and like I could do the things I wanted to do, either on the computer or off. Give up on all configuration, and just run defaults. Give up on Nix, on the idea of home automation, of having to maintain a calibre instance so I can fucking read the books I want to. Or go monthns without being able to log into my wallabag instance
If I just pay for everything, I'll have little reason to build niche weird tools

2024-08-28 03:47:24 UTC

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I finished rewriting, more or less. There's a couple of regressions, but I can use it again.
But it broke me, fedi. This is the most I've ever felt like I should just give in to it all. I don't want to have to baby my computers so they keep functioning (I know, rewriting my nvim config was entirely self inflicted). I'm wondering if I would be happier if I just stopped. Pay for SaaS software, use a MacBook, subscribe to spotify and netflix. Use obsidian for notes, and Quartz to publish.

2024-08-25 21:12:44 UTC

rewriting my nvim config for fun and no profit
mine is ancient and has accumulated much cruft
rewrite underway in fennel :3
making it fun, understanding how it all works, and keeping it easy to extend are some of my desires
making the editor feel good and work well again
lifting a couple neat ux's from lazy, cutting back heavily on supported languages (goodbye python mess 😌)
https://git.sealight.xyz/aynish/helm/src/branch/nvim-rewrite/home/profiles/nvim/

2024-08-04 05:07:28 UTC

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hmmm, certainly worth thinking about 🤔
im fairly certain the old taskwarrior before they adopted a database worked exactly like this, an append only log for actions taken on the state
having to reimplement the parser twice and assuring consistency between them sounds like a lot of work tho lol

2024-08-04 03:33:22 UTC

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i mean im already kinda commited to wasm on clientside, given my planned sync library is cr-sqlite
i think thats where I'm spending all my experimental tech points
i couldnt think of a simpler way to have cross environment sync, but I'm open to suggestions
i especially want it localfirst, and since this sync engine exists and is a sqlite extension i can run it anywhere, non of the other CRDT libraries i know offer this (they're all web only basically)

2024-08-04 03:15:35 UTC

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this means wasm for cr-sqlite on the web, but now I'm wondering if i should have a go-wasm something (does that exist?) for doing the language parsing bit so i can use the same format across applications
but thats a future me problem
for right now i want to see if i can get some simple applications syncing across web and cli
repo up at https://git.sealight.xyz/aynish/mast

2024-08-04 02:59:15 UTC

fed up with taskwarrior's new update which completely breaks all the infrastructure ive put in place i decided today to build my own
sync comes built in using cr-sqlite, hoping to have a go client and a local first web app so i can use it on my phone as a pwa too (finally time to learn web frontend lol)
really like their cli interface for making task entry as easy as possible so I'll probably reimplement that (t add "clean dished" +chores pro:house)