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Been making art all my life and spiritual seeking has finally ended

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2026-05-27 15:14:20 UTC

‘this isn’t somewhere else’
mixed media study in current series - ‘the make me machine’ - which is about noticing and seeing through the way the mind mechanism turns what’s actually happening into what it means, and in particular what it means about the illusory “me” that is created as the mechanism turns sensation into meaning, constructing and maintaining the illusion of a self that seems and feels somehow separate from the rest of life
#intuitiveart #abstractartist #mixedmediaart #presence #endofseeking
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2026-04-30 12:57:41 UTC

‘a figure that isn’t’
mixed media study - from current ongoing series
Look long enough and the lines stop being a body. There’s only the suggestion of movement - teal ink tracing the ghost of a self that was never quite solid to begin with. Beneath it, blossom perhaps… Above it, open air. And in between, all that restless, unresolved looping - interpretation doing what it does, forever sketching a ‘someone’ into existence.
And the ground stays still. The aqua doesn’t chase the lines. It just holds them - lightly, without preference - the way silence holds sound, the way awareness holds thought.
The figure leans forward, urgent, as if there’s somewhere else to be. Trapped inside the story of going. And yet there is no next, no arrival - only this endless illusion of becoming.
When the drawing hand stills, what remains isn’t emptiness - it’s this. The colour. The lines. The quiet. The blossom half-seen through the scribble. Life, raw and unhidden, before the interpreter arrives to name what it is.
#drawing #intuitiveart #mixedmedia #notknowing #endofseeking #nonduality #writing
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2026-04-11 11:47:54 UTC

From a continuing series: ‘the make “me” machine’
‘the emptiness of meaning’ mixed media study
‘Awakening’ to what is ‘true’ is really about seeing the emptiness of meaning - which can feel scary - so scary that many of us just won’t want to go there and prefer to rest somewhere comfortable - which also doesn’t mean anything
#intuitiveart #abstractart #mixedmedia #notknowing #endofseeking
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2026-04-06 14:07:35 UTC

‘it’s never in the words’
mixed media study
Continuing a series of mixed media studies focusing on the nature of self and not-knowing - exploring how a sense of “me” is constructed from raw experience, and what remains when that construction is seen through.
#intuitiveart #abstractart #mixedmedia #notknowing #endofseeking #colurart #wordart #writing
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2026-04-01 13:29:38 UTC

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#intuitiveart #abstractart #mixedmedia #notknowing #endofseeking

2026-04-01 13:26:24 UTC

Studio work/play
Nothing to say about this beyond the title
mixed media study
‘no answer no landing no conclusion’
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2026-03-27 17:22:49 UTC

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#intuitiveart #abstractart #mixedmedia #notknowing #endofseeking #psycholgicalsuffereing

2026-03-27 17:18:54 UTC

‘the make ‘Me’ machine’ mixed media study
My focus at the moment, held lightly, is to do with ‘not knowing’, in art and in life, and being curious and open to what shows up
It’s about surprising and entertaining myself - which leads to the question - What is myself? - a question I’ve been engaging with all my life and has taken me on a many decades long ontological, psychological and spiritual search
In recent years this enquiry has led, and keeps leading back to seeing that ‘I’ have no idea what ‘my self’ or ‘Self’ is - or if there even is one in the way we generally think or imagine
In the 90s I made a series of paintings called ‘The Make Wrong Machine’ - about the concept of judgment, of seeing that we, as human beings, have the capacity to make things wrong - a lot! It’s like we put something or someone - anything! - in at one end and out it comes, guaranteed to be somehow ‘wrong’ at the other end of the process. It’s a natural pattern that we can run and I became aware of it back then and ever since I often catch it running, sometimes even in time to stop it before it gets going…
Anyway, to make use of a ‘make wrong machine’ there has to be someone to operate it - a ‘me’ that, consciously or unconsciously, switches it on and puts things, people, ideas etc into it and it simply makes them ‘wrong’
So what I’m noticing and recognising now - or perhaps more accurately what is being noticed and recognised - is this ‘make Me machine’ - the mechanism we all have that interprets raw experience and adds meaning to it with names and labels and stories etc and in so doing constructs this sense of self, of a separate identity, somehow impossibly separate from the rest of experience, and this does seem to be the very root of all psychological suffering - and it’s canny and slippery and uses very clever disguises!
‘the make ‘Me’ machine’ mixed media study
https://blossom.primal.net/121b73777f8a86dbfe9b4f6cab3ced7f4fe30854ed989246a3f9c53ccfbc827d.jpg

2026-03-25 18:24:36 UTC

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#intuitiveart #abstractart #mixedmedia #notknowing #endofseeking

2026-03-24 16:22:27 UTC

Answering my own questions
I don’t actually want to find answers to questions any more in either life or art
I prefer to let questions just hang for a moment and dissolve unanswered - no expectations, no landings, no conclusions
I enjoy being surprised and curious and open and the blissful relief of just simply not knowing…
‘i don’t know what anything is’ mixed media study
https://blossom.primal.net/b82d2b6fc73c690e138fcef30f1ac3469e9caa2b1f171465dde39bec08a20183.jpg

2026-02-20 12:10:46 UTC

Had just had a PET scan so was literally radio active when I did this…
‘radioactive’ digital and mixed natural media
#art #artprocess #mixedmedia #sketchbook #artjournal #artstr #artchallenge #artjournaling #painting #makingart #drawing
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2026-02-07 13:07:58 UTC

‘time is just a concept’
digital drawing
Playing with contrast in colour and imagery
#art #artprocess #mixedmedia #sketchbook #artjournal #artstr #artchallenge #artjournaling #painting #makingart #drawing
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2026-02-07 13:05:52 UTC

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#art #artprocess #mixedmedia #sketchbook #artjournal #artstr #artchallenge #artjournaling #painting #makingart #drawing

2026-02-07 13:02:03 UTC

Playing with digital media and complementary colour contrast, shape and size contrast - organic/geometric with varying size dots, plus very low-contrast concealed lettering.
‘fabricated’ - digital image using own photos + dot templates
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2026-02-06 12:46:50 UTC

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#art #artprocess #mixedmedia #sketchbook #artjournal #artstr #artchallenge #artjournaling #painting #makingart #drawing

2026-02-06 12:40:44 UTC

Playing with contrast in colour - red orange vs blue green - and contrast in scale and texture of lines, marks and brushstrokes
‘wrraaaaaghhh’ digital study
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2026-01-29 18:43:26 UTC

Just joined Nostr and exploring how to post my artwork here - moving away from IG + FB…
I work intuitively using mixed media and this is a recent page from my A5 sketchbook.
#art #artist #artprocess #mixedmedia #sketchbook #artjournal #artstr #artjournaling #painting #makingart #drawing
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2026-01-29 12:34:52 UTC

hello world, I just made this account on https://nostr.com! #introductions