River J. Hopkins

Bestselling #Author of #SometimeAfterMidnight⭐ #Writer 📚 #Editor ✏️ #Musician 🎶 #Disabled ♿ #Gamer 🎮 An #ActualCyborg ⚙ She/Her/Hers/They/Them/Theirs ♀️✳ No DMs, please🚫

My latest series: #TheOutcrossedSeries; #IntoTheForgottenForest & #UnderTheWolfMoon

The game I run on here: #OfGhostsAndGods

My one person band: #Pseudonumb

Please send editing queries to river@riverjhopkins.com

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2026-03-31 13:56:02 UTC

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@nprofile…rave We actually haven't done that yet!! I don't know why hahahaha. My character's visions are connected with her tarot card readings. Usually whether she has a vision or not depends on my rolls, and my DM just makes shit up on the spot. I'll have to message them about it!

2026-03-31 13:51:43 UTC

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@nprofile…rave NICE. It's been really fun so far! This is actually my first time playing a TTRPG. Never had any friends who wanted to before now. Lol. We're gonna do Godsend next!! I'm psyched for the mechanics of that one, and playing two different characters.

2026-03-31 13:18:25 UTC

Thinking about the vampire RPG I've been playing. Yehn (or their character Adrian, really) has sort of taken lead for the most part. But they were absent last session, and that's when I realized that most of the suggestions about what we should be doing actually come from me. So, now I'm wondering why my friends are letting the bonkers Malkavian lead the party??? My character hears voices and has visions and tears peoples' heads off with her bare hands. LOL.
#VampireTheMasquerade #TTRPGs

2026-03-29 13:16:41 UTC

This ache in my heart is all I am.

2026-03-29 02:33:51 UTC

Oops. I wasn't expecting him to reply to my message so quickly, and I left him hanging for like an hour. D:

2026-03-28 15:23:06 UTC

Hoping to be the first tenant in this particular apartment who moves out BEFORE dying.
Because I guess everyone before me died here. Probably in the room I'm in right now.
Lady before me left several years of trash stickers behind when she passed. I just finished using them up this week. I think that's a sign I need to start looking for a new place to live.

2026-03-28 05:50:49 UTC

I know your heart doesn't reach
For me the way
Mine reaches for you
But it's yours, anyway—
My heart
I wouldn't know
What else to do with it.

2026-03-27 22:42:51 UTC

All these people from Matt's server, including his mods (friends? I dunno), keep going, "Oh, lemme DM you about this..." and sliding into my DMs. One of them sent me a friend request today, too. I don't know wtf is going on. Why does everyone want to be my friend all of a sudden? XD

2026-03-27 20:45:52 UTC

Being a responsible bitch.

2026-03-27 00:09:41 UTC

I keep thinking maybe spending time away from him will make my feelings lessen.
It has the opposite effect, unfortunately.

2026-03-26 15:49:48 UTC

Maybe someday someone will love me.

2026-03-26 11:58:33 UTC

Someone said that the best part of Massachusetts is wherever I am. 🤣

2026-03-25 13:04:25 UTC

Y'all can have all the tall men. I don't need to be dating someone like an entire foot taller than me. Makes me feel like a child.

2026-03-24 17:26:30 UTC

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My dad said something similar when I was younger, too. It stuck with me. Made me want to never be the person who would just walk away.
So, if someone can't match my energy, it's an immediate ick.

2026-03-24 17:23:26 UTC

My ex was the type to say, "Someone else will handle it."
I need someone in my life who will be the person to just help, no excuses. Just actions.

2026-03-24 14:26:35 UTC

Why do my exes keep popping up like the plague?? IS THERE A VACCINATION FOR THIS??

2026-03-24 12:45:03 UTC

These past few days have been wayyy too busy. I need to BREATHE.

2026-03-24 03:51:28 UTC

Just realizing Matt brought up a private conversation we had in chat on his server, and then ignored everyone else trying to talk to him while we chatted...and this is not the first time he's done that. Other times, he's done it live on Twitch. I think it's one of the reasons Halo thought we were dating. 💀

2026-03-24 03:44:55 UTC

"HE'S A CAMPER! LOOK AT HIS FACE BONERS!"

2026-03-23 22:42:07 UTC

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Bonus: bringing it up in chat instead of a DM but still treating it like a DM because you ignore everyone else but me.

2026-03-23 22:40:29 UTC

I feel like you wouldn't bring something up someone talked about weeks ago if it hadn't been living rent-free in your mind the entire time.

2026-03-23 13:43:49 UTC

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@nprofile…cm0q Aww, I'm so sorry. :(
And yeah, I get that. I haven't even attempted dating in years because I had my heart stomped on too much. I didn't think I was even capable of love anymore until I met him. There is hope!! I promise!

2026-03-23 13:35:56 UTC

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@nprofile…cm0q Thanks! And yeah, we're friends, and he knows I have feelings for him because I told him. He's still healing from a broken heart, though, so I'm just happy to be a part of his life in any capacity.

2026-03-23 13:26:06 UTC

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@nprofile…cm0q I have both at once, so I'm not sure I'm the best person to speculate on that lololol

2026-03-23 13:06:56 UTC

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@nprofile…cm0q Right?? The guy I have feelings for has ADHD. I've never felt more understood, and we're not even together (yet lol). 😂

2026-03-23 11:47:10 UTC

I think part of the problem I've had with dating in the past is that I needed to be dating someone who is also Neurodivergent.

2026-03-22 19:13:19 UTC

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@nprofile…ga79 Exactly! I crave the story and adventure, not the grinding and rush.

2026-03-22 16:59:07 UTC

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@nprofile…ga79 Yeah, I've been a little burnt out on it since half way through the last expansion. It feels like there's too much to do for casual players to ever reasonably catch up.

2026-03-22 14:53:06 UTC

Memory just struck me of my first time playing a Hunter in WoW. My second ever character. Not knowing I had to restock my arrows, and then running out of them. Standing in the fire. Watching helplessly as my pet fucked off into the sunset because I didn't know I had to feed it. Ahhh, the good ole days. 😂

2026-03-21 17:58:49 UTC

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He was so sweet with both of the dogs, too, and they just melted like butter around him. This man is so many green flags, he's a forest. I don't know how I'm gonna be able to meet him in person in May without falling completely in love.

2026-03-21 17:47:42 UTC

I can't get over this screenshot from last night's stream. LMAO. Drunk hot sauce night turned into goth makeover night.
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/268/411/543/696/286/original/96524409e28e6034.png

2026-03-21 17:44:04 UTC

A couple months ago, Matt told me he wanted me around all the time, and he wasn't sure if he SHOULD have mee around as much as he wanted me to be.
The other day, Halo told me I'm a really fun person to talk to.
And before that, Olan told me that I'm a unicorn of a friend.
I have never felt so seen or appreciated before. I'm much more used to being invisible and ignored. I think I have much better people in my life now than ever before.

2026-03-20 19:20:33 UTC

I think I need more skirts with suspenders.
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/263/117/629/978/083/original/db3c5506a322a31b.jpg

2026-03-20 14:04:38 UTC

"I'm 28-years your senior, so when you feel bad about 40, remember that."
"I don't feel bad about 40."
"Well! There you go, then!"
🤣 💀

2026-03-20 13:07:20 UTC

"You know, that actor? That attractive black man?"
"WHICH ONE?? THEY'RE ALL ATTRACTIVE. I NEED A NAME."

2026-03-20 09:52:35 UTC

I was depressed and went to sleep early. So now I'm awake early, and I have like 6 hours until my appointment. I don't even know what to do with myself.

2026-03-19 15:30:43 UTC

No one knows how old I am because I stopped aging in 2009.

2026-03-19 14:35:18 UTC

Because I never smile.
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/256/335/559/853/708/original/c83c1b92705f0877.jpg

2026-03-19 06:10:23 UTC

I did a lot of the lettering for Matt's poster today. Really happy with it so far! Well, I did it on stencil paper. Once it's complete, I'll line it up where I want on the poster, use transfer paper underneath, and trace over what I drew. So far, I have the PILTOVER and WANTED parts down, and I just have to do his name. I'm debating on whether or not to do Matthew or Mattables. Probably the latter. Lol. After that, I'll do his face in the center. I keep going back and forth on what photo to use.

2026-03-19 05:16:12 UTC

I've decided to say yes to a lot more things this year, and it's already turning into quite an adventure!

2026-03-19 05:14:58 UTC

"If a man's specifically seeking attention from ONE PERSON more than everyone else...he's definitely into them."
—Halo about how she's sure Matt has feelings for me

2026-03-12 13:01:46 UTC

I was about to leave a flirty comment on someone's post the other day when I got a notification that Matt posted a selfie. Immediately closed out of FB to open Discord, and it was a photo of him with another of the presents I sent him, and he was talking at me about it. Didn't tag me or say my name or anything, but he knew I'd know and that I'd reply quickly. I think that was my sign from the universe that I should save all my flirting for him. 😂

2026-03-10 00:08:40 UTC

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@nprofile…vs6a @nprofile…a0ad Thanks so much!! I think birds are my favorite thing to draw lol

2026-03-10 00:05:34 UTC

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@nprofile…a0ad @nprofile…vs6a Huzzah!! Yeah, just let me know, and we can discuss details. :)

2026-03-10 00:01:46 UTC

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@nprofile…a0ad @nprofile…vs6a I do love drawing corvids!!

2026-03-09 22:03:17 UTC

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Donations are welcome, too! I won't say no to any money, at this point.
https://account.venmo.com/u/cyborg_writer

2026-03-09 21:59:34 UTC

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A couple more examples.
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/201/457/525/558/370/original/75874d7b9215040d.jpg
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/201/457/534/868/884/original/561515679b3ad361.jpg

2026-03-09 21:55:19 UTC

If I start doing art commissions, would anyone be interested? These are some examples. I do black and white watercolor pencil and pen drawings.
#Artist #Commissions #ArtCommissions
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/201/442/136/899/678/original/e30aa82538699fc3.jpg
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/201/442/157/474/190/original/2285d5ae12367062.jpg
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/201/442/136/563/527/original/6074f4bba093d258.jpg
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/201/442/214/863/119/original/ee4900e4315aa0bd.jpg

2026-03-08 19:24:30 UTC

Thinking about doing some art commissions.

2026-03-07 00:03:25 UTC

I can't do fake friends.

2026-03-06 14:19:32 UTC

The way he smiles when he says hello to me. 🥰
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/182/656/644/571/479/original/51d060801a28e406.jpg

2026-03-03 14:27:13 UTC

Halo is convinced Matt has feelings for me, even if he doesn't realize it yet. I'm really hoping that's true. I don't mind waiting for him to realize it. I can be patient. He is my absolute dream guy. I honestly don't think I'll ever meet anyone like him ever again.

2026-03-03 05:03:36 UTC

"4 mon—Shut the fuck up. It is NOT 4 months. You are out of your—River, I feel like we've been chattin the entire time. I feel like it's been a god damn year. So, that's crazy to me."
-Mattables

2026-03-02 09:47:54 UTC

I just want someone to speak my love language.

2026-02-26 21:29:29 UTC

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And now I'm crying because I'm wondering if all those people I helped when I was working there aren't getting that kind of help anymore.

2026-02-26 21:26:31 UTC

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This is making me realize that maybe not every hospital has people who care enough to run the extra mile like that, even if it's not part of our job description...and that's really fucking sad. The whole point of working in a hospital is to help people.
Why aren't people helping people???

2026-02-26 21:25:12 UTC

I'm watching the new series, and there's this whole thing where JD has to call around and get free medication samples for a patient who couldn't afford them, and it's like the main plotline...and he's saying, "We can't do this for everyone," and that's just not accurate.
When I worked at the front desk in a psych office, I used to help patients get vouchers for samples every single day. I would talk to our Triage nurses, and they would hunt some down.

2026-02-25 12:03:17 UTC

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@nprofile…cm0q Thanks!! I totally will!

2026-02-25 12:03:04 UTC

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@nprofile…lzf2 Thank you!! 😃

2026-02-25 12:02:51 UTC

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@nprofile…e3kd Thank you so much!! 🫶

2026-02-25 05:00:17 UTC

It is my birthday.

2026-02-25 02:28:31 UTC

It's my birthday in just a couple hours!

2026-02-25 01:11:44 UTC

I have a flight pass for the year and I have no idea where to go.
I have 2 trips planned, but that's it.
I'd love to take a short weekend trip somewhere next month. I need to find a new editing client or do some art commissions first, though.

2026-02-24 18:04:33 UTC

I don't know if I can continue with this show after they fucking killed Penny a SECOND TIME.

2026-02-24 13:48:06 UTC

I'm really bad at sticking to a schedule.

2026-02-22 17:41:16 UTC

I'm wearing a shirt that used to be too tight. Now I could probably fit two other people in it with me.

2026-02-22 16:09:04 UTC

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@nprofile…cm0q LOL Excellent. Thank you!!

2026-02-22 14:40:17 UTC

Space face.
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/114/792/391/125/920/original/6192f259d626395a.jpg

2026-02-22 08:04:10 UTC

Is anyone else having issues with their PFP and banner?

2026-02-22 01:38:03 UTC

I wish I never let my heart start to feel things again.

2026-02-21 23:13:47 UTC

I made a Throne wishlist, in case anyone wants to send me gifties. I don't expect anyone to, but just in case. XD
https://throne.com/riverjhopkins

2026-02-21 14:56:24 UTC

I'm so cozy and I don't want to get out of bed, but...I HUNGERRRRRRRRRR. 😶

2026-02-20 12:01:17 UTC

Gonna be 40 in 5 days, but I look younger now than I did a decade ago. Could be the weight loss. Could be magic. Who knows??
https://cdn.masto.host/writing/media_attachments/files/116/102/842/034/083/345/original/ee83ae45102d36d7.webp

2026-02-19 03:05:15 UTC

I dunno about y'all, but when I find a bra I like, I buy multiples.

2026-02-09 20:12:09 UTC

The only wrinkles on my face are some smile lines around my eyes. Not gonna complain, because they're there for good reasons.

2026-02-09 20:03:12 UTC

Actually doing something for Valentine's Day this year.
The last time I "celebrated" it was my ex calling me at work from rehab. And that was like...13 years ago.
This time I'm spending it doing a drunk stream on Twitch with the friend I have feelings for. Other people will be there, sure...but I only have the googly eyes for him.

2026-02-09 18:12:45 UTC

I was sad for no reason.
I fucking misheard what someone said, and it sent me into a spiral. I feel like an idiot. But I also feel very much better.

2026-02-08 14:02:01 UTC

I hate everything today.

2026-02-08 09:26:54 UTC

I don't wanna be awake. Why am I awake?? I don't even wanna be ALIVE right now. 😭😭😭

2026-02-07 18:05:58 UTC

Self-care, Helluva Boss short, and Mattables stream today. It's gonna be a gooooood day!

2026-02-06 23:41:53 UTC

Earlier, I saw he sent me a message. I was winning a round of Battlegrounds (1st place, 4 players left), and I conceded so I could go read it and answer him. No regrets. 😂

2026-02-06 23:23:58 UTC

Yesterday on stream, he popped on before he usually does just to tell me he still doesn't believe I've only been around 3 months, then back off camera. I had to explain to poor, confused chat what was going on, because he didn't address me directly. He just spoke like we were the only two people there. 😂 💀

2026-02-06 21:26:21 UTC

I am so happy right now, y'all have no idea.

2026-02-06 14:31:35 UTC

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It's honestly the weirdest but best thing in the world when people just like you for who you are.

2026-02-06 14:30:05 UTC

I keep thinking I'm gonna scare him off because I never shut up...but...he LIKES that I never shut up. So...I guess I won't!

2026-02-04 16:42:30 UTC

HE THINKS I'M CUUUUUUTE 🥰

2026-02-04 02:16:37 UTC

I don't care if this is TMI; being a woman who has periods sucks. I hate it. I'm sad and tired for no reason.

2026-02-03 01:20:02 UTC

Do what I do and tell someone you love them, accidentally. Sometimes they say it back. 😂🫶

2026-02-02 23:22:42 UTC

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Literally cannot stop replaying this interaction in my head on a loop. It was probably one of the cutest things to ever happen to me.

2026-02-01 16:53:21 UTC

My heart is happy today.

2026-02-01 02:01:57 UTC

I'm DYING. Lmaoooo. He argued with me, live on stream, about when we met. And he got so flustered about it, he had to pause and go put on a jacket. 😂 💀

2026-01-31 14:00:19 UTC

Still angry about my ex emailing me. Gonna kill lots of things in WoW today in his honor. And this afternoon, I get to see Matt, so I'm sure all thoughts of the jerk will fall out of my brain as soon as I see his cute face.

2026-01-31 03:19:32 UTC

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I mean, I guess I live rent-free in their heads or something. Too bad, so sad. You fumbled me. Live with it.

2026-01-31 03:17:19 UTC

Another ex appeared out of nowhere today. What the fuck? Lol no. You're the devil. Go away. 😂

2026-01-30 16:33:19 UTC

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🎶Overthinkiiiiiiiiiing🎶

2026-01-30 16:32:36 UTC

OH NO. WAS THAT TOO MUCH?

2026-01-30 02:21:41 UTC

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It hurts.

2026-01-30 02:21:21 UTC

I don't want to feel anymore.

2026-01-29 07:41:25 UTC

Did a couple drawings yesterday! The first, a commission for a friend's tattoo of her cat with a crescent moon above his head, and the second, a wolf with a lil snow on his nose for Mattables. I was nervous they wouldn't like them, but they both loved them!!

2026-01-28 12:40:27 UTC

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@nprofile…aaa3 Thank you! It's gonna be an art day. 😁