💜💜 Jessica 💜💜

Girl who spends too much time on emotional and mental health roller coasters. Sometimes I despise myself sometimes I think I’m hot shit. Reality probably lies between.

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jessica_at_chaosfem.tw@momostr.pink

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Last Notes

2025-07-16 23:39:53 UTC

Fuck. Gavin. Newsom.
https://www.erininthemorning.com/p/newsoms-bizarre-interview-with-maga

2025-05-29 16:32:22 UTC

Four years ago today, on the beautiful Northern California coastline near Mendocino I carried a picnic dinner bundle towards a secluded spot overlooking the Pacific Ocean, followed by my long time partner, C, and our dog, Jade. Little did either realize I was carrying something else besides our meal ... something hidden deep inside that I had only just revealed to myself.
It was here, looking over the view immortalized in the photo below, that I came out, hesitantly and with a lingering cloud of uncertainty that I "might be" a transgender woman.
I recall little of what I said that day, I'm sure little of it made sense no matter how much I had agonized over it the preceding couple of weeks since realizing that truth myself. But I will always remember C's reaction ... taking in the news, allowing me to speak and then smiling, hugging me closely and assuring me that *we* would tackle this together.
In the 1461 days since there have been a collection of ups and downs but the trajectory of my transition and my life has remained positive. C (and Jade) remain by my side and have been foundational allies and support in my transition. And as I've come out to others and met so many incredible friends in the community, I am graced by such support and love from so many. Thank you all.
Four years ago I did one of the hardest things I could image, to speak words that could have destroyed my life and relationships, all for the possibility that I might have a life that more fit who I was and had always been. I took those steps, said those words, and have been rewarded in ways I could never have imagined.
#TransJoy
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2024-11-13 21:16:00 UTC

Doing my best to start #TransgenderAwarenessWeek by being visible. I’m trans, I’m proud, and the misguided politics and misogynistic hate towards our community will not change that. Fuck off to anyone who feels they have a say in how I or anyone else lives their lives.
Photo is from #SFCityHall from a wedding of two beautiful women who I adore and was so honored and happy to be present for them on their special day.
Be safe, be strong and be yourselves.
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2024-11-05 16:44:17 UTC

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dammit I knew I should have grabbed one while I was up.

2024-11-05 15:26:14 UTC

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holy fission, Batman! WTAF?

2024-11-03 19:27:12 UTC

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😂

2024-11-03 03:53:33 UTC

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Nooooooooooo!

2024-11-01 14:11:01 UTC

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foiled again. Argh!

2024-11-01 14:10:00 UTC

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too late, Jess! *cackles*

2024-11-01 14:07:53 UTC

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one more down and soon … SOON … the name Jessica will be all mine! Mine, I tell you! *evil laugh*

2024-11-01 00:59:04 UTC

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nailed it!

2024-10-31 01:20:48 UTC

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you look mah-vel-lous

2024-10-30 16:08:12 UTC

I am astounded by the wonderful level of support I’m getting from my family and friends. Three and a half years ago I’d never have expected this. Transition was going to be an individual endeavor I thought … but it’s far more than that. I wouldn’t be here with so many friends walking the same path, often ahead of me but sometimes besides me.
I hope I can be that type of friend to others on this journey. 💜

2024-10-29 02:55:40 UTC

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damn I want this for my daily wear 💜

2024-10-25 17:20:47 UTC

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she’s right but I’m not sure I can support your assumption 😂

2024-10-25 17:16:41 UTC

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🎉🎉🎉 let’s get it official girl! Happy for you.

2024-10-25 17:15:35 UTC

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I’m not sure many are going to complain about legibility 🥰

2024-10-25 16:15:47 UTC

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so true.

2024-10-23 14:08:50 UTC

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2024-10-17 13:41:01 UTC

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good luck!! 💜💜

2024-10-16 16:18:42 UTC

What have I done to deserve this ad in my TL? 🤮
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2024-10-14 16:19:51 UTC

Once more into the breach, dear friends … once more
(Final bottom electrolysis and last electro of the year)
⚡️⚡️⚡️

2024-10-06 07:46:14 UTC

BREAKING — Hot girl feels hot
Outfit for girls night dinner with friends and my partner. Loving it.
https://chaosfemtw.files.fedi.monster/media_attachments/files/113/259/362/861/430/091/original/fcab7eee6f493ad3.jpeg
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2024-10-01 23:14:18 UTC

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does the guy in the left know you hacked into his photo album? How do you keep getting these photos of him to use?🤭
But seriously your timelines are always hard to fathom and this one is no different.
And a really really lovely photo on the right. Hope you are having a wonderful birthday! 💖

2024-10-01 15:27:44 UTC

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happy birthday, girl! 💜🎂🎉

2024-09-30 13:54:30 UTC

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those lists were so triggering

2024-09-28 19:27:04 UTC

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as a soon to be 36 year old, I fully support this base.

2024-09-24 14:26:34 UTC

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wait. does that mean famous internet tube promoter Ted Stevens > George Orwell? 🤔

2024-09-24 01:28:46 UTC

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little me got such a thrill when we got to go to the drive through and use them. ATMs robbed us of pneumatic joy!

2024-09-22 07:05:40 UTC

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embarrassing transition fact … a couple months after transition we packed everything up into storage until we found our new house. Somewhere along the line we lost the Dyson hair dryer I’d bought my partner the year before 😬😭

2024-09-19 16:20:09 UTC

I didn’t think this was possible but I overbuttered my naan.

2024-09-16 01:11:51 UTC

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2024-09-15 03:48:31 UTC

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Poe girls unite!

2024-09-15 03:30:09 UTC

I … I … I just might need to buy this
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2024-09-12 02:30:02 UTC

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aww … simply adorable. Great photo.

2024-09-12 01:56:42 UTC

Filing a police report (hit and run ... slight car damage but everyone inside ok) and have the following options under "Sex" when describing the reporter ... don't think it is particularly relevant whether I'm trans ... thankfully not "required"
ACAB includes police website designers
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2024-09-11 20:23:02 UTC

Me: contrary to popular opinion, I don’t have many purple clothes
Also me: oh look what I found in my dresser, yet to be worn.
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2024-09-10 05:46:50 UTC

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2024-09-07 18:57:57 UTC

Hate when you are feeling fine but in the back of your head you feel a need to cry but the tears aren’t coming yet.

2024-09-04 22:58:16 UTC

One of these days, I’ll paint my lips the way that doesn’t look like a clown using a paint roller 🤡

2024-09-03 05:01:27 UTC

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hugs dear 🫂

2024-09-03 05:00:39 UTC

Yesterday a friend asked me to enter my number in her phone so I did, then created a contact and snapped this off the cuff photo.
Like this might be one of my favorites in a while and I barely was trying. Some of @npub1y5d…ng26’s selfie magic must have rubbed off on me. 😂
(Just don’t look at the fuzz growing in anticipation of tomorrow’s electrolysis)
CW: selfie, presumed eye contact behind sunglasses
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2024-08-29 19:30:37 UTC

New nails!
Once again my nail artist hit it out of the park. I never fully know what she is going to do … but I’m never disappointed.
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2024-08-26 23:38:01 UTC

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wishing you luck. I know that feeling. 🫂

2024-08-25 22:34:52 UTC

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I got the CD pack that had like 4-5 different distros (back when a distro got on a single disc)

2024-08-25 22:09:59 UTC

Since we seem to be sharing #Linux memories … I started playing with it when the 2.4 kernel was too experimental to use 👵🏻

2024-08-22 23:16:09 UTC

What I ordered vs what I got 🤬
Arrrrrrgh!
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2024-08-22 22:40:24 UTC

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💃

2024-08-22 20:36:53 UTC

Going through boxes still leftover from the move.
What is this?!? A phone for ants???
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2024-08-22 19:01:39 UTC

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looks like a I party is like to be at
It’s a great look for you. 🔥

2024-08-21 18:03:03 UTC

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sorry 🫂🫂🫂

2024-08-18 16:16:42 UTC

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player 1: choose your dancer
https://chaosfemtw.files.fedi.monster/media_attachments/files/112/983/917/181/922/050/original/512051f884e5bc9f.mp4

2024-08-17 23:32:52 UTC

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oh I’m so happy for you ❤️❤️❤️

2024-08-17 02:45:09 UTC

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this might be your best selfie yet … you look gorgeous and so happy 🥰

2024-08-16 21:29:36 UTC

Absolutely love this dress 😍
I don’t think the photo does it justice 💙
CW: selfie, eye contact
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2024-08-12 22:01:16 UTC

One of the most humorous and unintended commands we have taught our two dogs is, “family meeting”
Family meetings are nap times in the bedroom (where each dog has their own bed). If my partner and I feel the need for a quick nap, announcing “family meeting” will get our furry children up and trotting into the bedroom in no time to join us. 😊

2024-08-11 16:07:04 UTC

Sometimes a girl just feels like a cry for no reason … as a treat?
Wish these tears would either come out or go away, standing at the doorway waiting to release sucks
And I’m not in a poor mood … or at least wasn’t … just eating at our fave breakfast place 🥞 and then suddenly needing to cry for no apparent reason

2024-08-07 16:23:09 UTC

Found out yesterday a cishet friend is moving to Texas in a year of so (to live close to family)
Must be nice to look at a map of the United States and not have to do mental math of where people wish me not to exist.

2024-08-06 18:06:10 UTC

Hate the self-sabotaging mind tricks we do to ourselves … chose a cute outfit for lunch and now my brain says I look like I’ll be serving lunch more than eating lunch.

2024-08-06 17:20:16 UTC

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the complete disrespect of the beautiful lesbian pride flag is shocking! 😡

2024-08-03 05:00:09 UTC

Girl in search of fellow lesbian to help me with this knot in my hair … while in my bed … naked. 🥰

2024-07-31 03:53:27 UTC

I have boobs and that is a wonderful thing. Send toot.

2024-07-30 23:08:45 UTC

More art … first time doing any #Glass work as part of a family outing at BAGI (Bay Area Glass Institute) a couple weekends ago.
I sense a theme. 💜
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2024-07-30 19:44:13 UTC

New nails 💜💅🏻
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