*sigh*
i don't know, fedi.
so much of my identity is wrapped up with weird computer esoterica that i cant even really imagine what my life would be like. i'd give up all my computers and just start again. that's really scary to me. that it will still take me a long time to get productive again, with whatever new tools i choose. and then i'd also have to give up on any semblance of privacy, mostly give up on FOSS, and be beholden to mega corps i despise