I don't know if I would be getting this quite so clearly if I couldn't look across the world at Palestine & at the murderous settler colonial nation that is a few steps behind us on the genocidal plan.
Being able to see the truth with my own eyes of what the violence of being a settler is cracked something open in my mind. The realization: oh, that's what it looked like. That's what my ancestors did so that I could "belong" to this stolen land.
Once you see it, you can't "unsee" it.