I guess it's time for letting go of the past, at least for me. Sure, there were countless chances I never made use of, it even inspired me to come up with certain philosophical thought experiment about objectivity of reality and free will, it goes like this: Let's assume that there is some *apparent* possibility - however due to certain circumstances one does not make use of it and go on unperturbed. Thus, can we even claim that such possibility existed at all at that particular moment? Or perhaps the course of action was already predestined and the aforementioned bifurcation point is purely virtual, for the outcome was already known before the observer was even presented with choice.
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