I used to be in a similar position, I was the only non-shareholder/“first and only worker” in a X years old “startup” that made no profit and struggled to find investors.
It felt like I had the weight of the world behind my back (and suffice to say my family only made things worse for me).
After Y years of being loyal to the company and rejecting better paying jobs elsewhere (when it was still easy to find a job), I got really burned out from taking shit from everywhere and was promptly fired the week following of my failed suicide attempt.
Been bedridden for Y years now, unable to do anything or speak with anyone because all I can feel is disgust when I look into the faces of the people around me who happen to share some of my DNA.
To add insult to injury, my laptop no longer powers on so even if I managed to fix my mind just enough to be productive and find work, I wouldn’t be able to.
Moral of the history: it can always get worse.
People who have it easy will be quick to judge and say this is victim mentality or some other bullshit some popular retard guru spits out, only those who have been crushed at least once know how bad it is.
I wish I could provide something more useful than this but somehow it felt relevant to share the story of a looser since everyone pretends to be always winning on the internet and that certainly has an impact on morale.
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2026-06-01 05:44:20 UTC
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