I stopped having issues with being the odd one out when I was about 16. Like Laury, I didn't die my hair red, but I put a frame around that crack in the wall. I was an out and proud queer and didn't care what others thought of me.
However, I care a lot about what I think of myself. I hold myself to a very high standard and I'm afraid I might not have the spoons to live up to my own standards now anymore. It feels like a loss, like a defeat.
Aaron (npub16ww…3mwa) Violet Madder (npub1mvc…pkp6) ActuallyAutistic group (npub10v4…s27h)
levampyre
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