Yeah, I completely know what that feels like - and you're allowed to "fail" - for small things I have it slip unconsciously at times still. It can feel impossible to reject it, but if you can stop and feel out the situation - like, intelligently talk yourself down in the moment and seeing if you can let it pass.
I won't push too hard here, since even I'm making myself a bit anxious facing right at it like this. Best wishes.