the blacking out thing, I think mine was too much traumatic input from the noise, the crowding, the helplessness. My mind decided to forget it. It wasn't like just losing track of time.
I have some traumatic memories from my childhood. I remember the full lead up, what happened, what people in control said, the crying on my part. But I don't remember how they ended. Not remembering what happened at the principal's office, sent there to be beaten (for crying) that is blacking out.
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