It's just like i wonder if I'm scared of aging as a man and this is just normal? You get hair that you don't like, your hair is thinning, your skin is worse, you have to shave aka twink death.
Every time i think about or get referred to as a she it feels "off", it feels "oh, thank you but you didn't have to, see I'm not really sure about it" idk...i just wish i could stop being in this nowhere, being fine with who i am but also wanting to transition