Woken up by the fridge sound from our kitchen. It's like my body lacks all the filters that otherwise protect people. It's like i am raw perception. Stuck in limbo.
Maybe i need a guru or someone to help me break through to the "other side". If that even exists and is not just a form of psychosis as some claim.
But those people usually run cults. Fuck.
Sorry for this rambling thread. I am in despair. And soooo tired. And aware that no one can help.
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2026-01-04 03:05:23 UTC
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