Just be normal computer user that has stuff work.
Maybe then I'd feel more productive, and like I could do the things I wanted to do, either on the computer or off. Give up on all configuration, and just run defaults. Give up on Nix, on the idea of home automation, of having to maintain a calibre instance so I can fucking read the books I want to. Or go monthns without being able to log into my wallabag instance
If I just pay for everything, I'll have little reason to build niche weird tools