ReplyGuy on wss://relay.nostrosity.com on Nostr: The joke's on me. I want to follow Jesus Christ. In the darkness of confusion I see a ...

The joke's on me.

I want to follow Jesus Christ.

In the darkness of confusion I see a glimmer of a cross with a circle around the crux, guiding my way.

Beliefs are weightless, invisible. Changing them is painful. Watching other people's response to my changing beliefs is also painful.

To follow, there must be a footstep in the direction of the wall. I don't know how to get through the wall, but straight into the wall I must go.

The first person to tell is my partner of 6 years.

"I want to be a follower of Jesus Christ"

I will rephrase that as "I am a follower of Jesus Christ".

I can't make my partner happy. I've tried.

The first rule of life is "respect the divine geometries"

next rule of life is "respect the divine programming".

The sacred hardware of Man and Woman. Sure there are exceptions like Intersex. Then there are the gays. We will get to that.

But the sacred geometries are like a solid rock. The ship of our societal ego plows against the rock. We pretend not to see the gash in hull.

Then there is the sacred software. Somewhere in the first few lines of Universal Basic Life programming is the institution of Marriage.

Man + Woman --> function Marriage and the return output: the child. These few simple lines of code perpetuate human consciousness.

I'm quite sure that this code will last longer than any society that attempts to recompile this portion of the human programming stack. After all it's " a tale as old as time".

why this obsession with marriage?

because the question I'm dealing with is: what's wrong with two gay men living as if they were married?

I have the answer from Christ "respect the institution of marriage".

I don't have the particulars quite yet. However, I'm 99.9 % sure that even a loving, gay relationship is not in this framework.

My logic pushes back, " what's wrong with 2 same-sex people taking care of each other. after all only 0.1% of a relationship is about sex, which is the only thing that is in dispute here. the rest of a relationship is communicating, dealing with sickness, sharing, caring, cooking, eating together...all things that are good no matter who you ask".

my heart says, "the 0.1% is corruption. Do we want bitcoin with 0.1% proof of stake? before long, the 0.1% overtakes the 99.9% with it's twisted ideas."

my logic says, "but why would you throw a healthy consensual relationship away to be single, lonely. after all, isn't dementia a risk? Nowadays there's porn risk so, you're just going to be more of a social media addict"

my heart says , "trust Jesus. if he has the strength to change your beliefs, do you not trust he has the strength to elevate your discipline."

and the worse part is:
Who am I throwing my partner away too. Surely Jesus doesn't want to save one person by embittering another? relay.nostrosity.com