It used to be good, back when I used to still knew tech. I'm so far behind at this point that i would never catch up again (and seriously, the work causes panic attacks for me now, even just fixing my own shit).
It wasn't that the work was particularly hard, back in the day, but the only way to keep the job was 70 hour work weeks and terminal on-call. For more than a decade I couldn't watch a movie or eat a meal with my family without it getting interrupted. It sure feels like PTSD, but just try to get a diagnosis for it (assuming you can afford $200 a session for someone that can daignose you)
For real, I have no idea what i'm good for anymore.
Sorry to hijack lol
Roknrol /
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2024-09-03 14:28:22
in reply to nevent1q…9r0t
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