Simon Ashcroft

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2023-09-22 19:20:05

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May it be so for you, @npub1dsd…l2mp.

2023-09-22 05:52:53

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Another one where you seem to have split one poen into two, @npub1dsd…l2mp. Read this immediately after your previous...
It seems you wish to disappear into the cosmos, maybe unseen to the starlight, but still affected by it, in order to be found and gathered up, inebriated by your own wonder at the sky, by someone whose love you hope will heal you.
Or, to put it another way, you want a refuge, a hiding place, where you can see yet go generally unnoticed, but hope to find help in an emotional connection.
I think...

2023-09-14 05:32:29

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Then the kiss is from the sun, or one you picture as the sun, I take it, @npub1dsd…l2mp .
Again, that is not physical wound, but deep. There is some relief, or healing, at least, in cauterisation, but the night, the moon, brings the stillness to feel it unsullied by the distractions of day.

2023-09-12 22:26:47

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@npub1dsd…l2mp I'm doomed... 🤣

2023-09-12 22:24:42

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Shhh... don't tell everyone, @npub1dsd…l2mp. You'll destroy my reputation...
🤫

2023-09-12 22:21:43

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@npub1dsd…l2mp Ad I thought I was confused...
🧐

2023-09-12 22:19:44

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And why to I get the impression you are that which is totally consumed in the impact of this particular asteroid, @npub1dsd…l2mp?

2023-09-12 22:09:07

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@npub1dsd…l2mp I very much doubt you look like that @Michelle...!!!🤣🤣🤣

2023-09-12 21:59:56

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And you have surpassed yourself again, @npub1dsd…l2mp.

2023-09-12 21:45:04

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Really, @npub1dsd…l2mp ! I've never before heard such a naughty and mischievous laugh from you!!!

2023-09-12 20:07:39

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So my attempt to be forbidding clearly failed, @npub1dsd…l2mp. 🤨🤬😁

2023-09-12 19:51:30

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@npub1dsd…l2mp "Have a guess," said he, darkly...

2023-09-12 19:28:46

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You wear black to camouflage the light within you, @npub1dsd…l2mp - that you may appear more forbidding. 👀😱👹

2023-09-12 19:21:44

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There are a few such burial grounds here, also, @npub1dsd…l2mp. It just did not occur to me to think you were planning a funeral!!!

2023-09-12 05:41:45

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... and yet, life continues...
There is a sense of hopelessness and futility here. Maybe, even, a resignation to the point of desire for oblivion.
Yor physical self may dissolve eventually, @npub1dsd…l2mp - and that is, actually, appropriate. But your spirit still soars, even when you cannot feel it.

2023-09-08 16:50:30

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Use Sirius as a signpost, @npub1dsd…l2mp.

2023-09-08 16:49:22

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@npub1dsd…l2mp Well beyond your years...!
👵👀

2023-09-08 12:26:08

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A focus for your desire, be that for comfort, rest, peace or otherwise, @npub1dsd…l2mp, and a source of light and beauty in your darker moments, I take it.

2023-09-08 05:24:51

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@npub1dsd…l2mp Not intended, but noticed after written and left there purposely!!! 🤣
Mind, you seem not so very modern yourself, below the surface, my ancient friend...!!! 😉🤣

2023-09-07 22:20:27

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You seem to be drawing some of your imagery from ideas of archaic, maybe celtic style paganism, @npub1dsd…l2mp. I sense, though, an idea of someone hardened by life's inevitable rituals. Bog iron, impure ore depsits leeched from groundwater; bone coal, a black, hard, rocky anthracite; both unyielding, both hidden from view in earth or water. The core of someone moulded by harsh experience.
At least the spirit of this one is more pure - as steel is to iron - but harder, sharp, maybe dangerous. Yet with memories - ghosts. Perhaps of kinder times; of what was before the impurities were burned off and forged steel?
You see this one as almost a sacrificial blade it seems. I can only assume that the kisses are meant to soften all that hardness. Almost as if the altar victim hopes to overcome the priest. If that is correct, and if achieved, who becomes, and who makes, the sacrifice?
There's a certain irony there, if this interpretation is near accurate.

2023-09-03 22:44:29

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No, that will be the coffee snorkelling, @npub1dsd…l2mp.

2023-09-03 22:42:12

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@npub1dsd…l2mp One day. When the stars are right, @Michelle...👹

2023-09-03 22:28:22

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Which is precisely how I intended, @npub1dsd…l2mp. One must be inscrutable when planning revenge... 😉😅👀

2023-09-03 22:25:27

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@npub1dsd…l2mp The gravity is in a person, then. So, a personal attaction. I take the vacuum to imply two things - first, the pull is as strong for you as a planet or star; secondly, it leaves you feeling unable to breathe. But why the feather and anvil?
Maybe, you picture each falling toward the other equally, better than you mourning a lonely breathlessness?
Still fearful, then?

2023-09-03 22:12:29

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The pain I can handle, @npub1dsd…l2mp. It's the non-painful bits that I fear most 🤣
And, with that thought, I withdraw from this particular battle...!

2023-09-03 18:14:49

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@npub1dsd…l2mp Now, I am scared...

2023-09-03 06:29:49

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@npub1dsd…l2mp Actually, this strikes me as a very similar idea to your priestess in the temple poem. Presumably the head-bowed supplicant is offering the loving gaze.
Then again, I might, even, poke you with a stick of mischief and suggest you see that loving gaze as a form of worship - but that would not be a fair comment.
Oops, did I say that out loud...? 🤭

2023-08-30 21:38:31

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Then someone has dug you out of a hole, so to speak, @npub1dsd…l2mp ?
On the face of it, the grammar could refer to you as brought back, or to any third party; but the experience, logically, would have to be yours for you to so reference it. Which raises a puzzle. You always seem too alive for me to see you as having been "entombed"

2023-08-26 22:13:13

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@npub1dsd…l2mp In the lonely darkness,
your worth will not be obscured;
nor will your pain be unheeded.
The night, a kindly nurse,
a carpenter of skill and Mercy's tradesman,
will stop the blood, and you will sing once more.

2023-08-26 21:45:27

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Only because it is too obvious to mention, I'm sure, @npub1dsd…l2mp

2023-08-26 21:09:58

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@npub1dsd…l2mp Clever... 😄

2023-08-26 20:41:56

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An indication, if I understand correctly, that you feel a deep, "spiritual" (for want of any other word readily coming to mind) connection with another. Irrelevant in terms of any physical relationship (beyond corporeal craving), yet with a desire - encompassing enough to be boundless, unmeasured - for contact at a level of mutual understanding, as if minds (souls, hearts?) themselves touch and share their thoughts.
You seem to feel this takes you beyond current limitations (out of body).
That seems to me a rare experience, @npub1dsd…l2mp

2023-08-26 05:41:30

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Whatever bore the cosmos bore those that inhabit it. Children of the universe, grandchildren of a reality beyond time. Therefore, are you not equally eternal, @npub1dsd…l2mp ? Is not that ache you describe simply a longing for home at last?
Again, a piece with much meaning in few words.

2023-08-15 22:20:00

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This makes most sense to me if I identify the light with the kiss and the succour with the justice.
Lying, remembering, has the feel of this present life as a darkened prison. The judgement that the kiss of the light of another's life has upon your darkness becomes the judgement of a merciful banishment of personal shadow. This is accentuated by the remembrance of lives "after this" - time becomes meaningless, and all future potential is freed from current restriction by a kiss of fierce, blazing enlightenment.
A rare experience, @npub1dsd…l2mp. And one difficult to express - so, congratulations. Assuming I am understanding this, of course. You seem increasingly... "mystical"

2023-08-14 20:34:20

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You take this imagery from current environment in a too hot summer, I take it, @npub1dsd…l2mp ?
I take it that the "supplication" also mirrors the bending of the grass, and what is sought is refreshment, something life affirming.

2023-08-13 22:02:43

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Determination, @npub1dsd…l2mp...?
Good. I recall wishing you a healthy dose of bloody mindedness some time ago.

2023-08-13 06:29:31

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Now that has set off a chain of ideas to explore.
I have heard it said that laughter and crying are similar, physiologically. Also that the good poets are the "tortured souls".
Connections. Are joy and sorrow, suffering and art, pain and love all basically the same - each containing the other? I see the potential for a lot of imagery to be artistically explored there.
Hmm... the action of "fire" as a metaphor for a sort of alchemical process throughout the above.
I'm not sure you intended opening a treasure chest of ideas, @npub1dsd…l2mp, but your challenge, now, is what to do with them...!

2023-08-12 20:38:45

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Presumably, to become one with the flood, carried along in the currents, if the metaphor is to be continued. The resting place of "doubt" suggests you consider it something worthless in opposition to an overwhelming power.
May your doubt remain buried, @npub1dsd…l2mp .

2023-08-11 22:17:31

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So, water erodes. Earth yields. The light of the moon is reflected. All is change, constantly, in life's flow, and that sorrow will not stay either, @npub1dsd…l2mp.