There was a time where I felt the same (mostly in 2022, but also a bit earlier in this year), I felt like I was being a drama queen and bothering the people I interact with. Nobody actually said I was but it felt that way.
So I understand what you mean. It's challenging to balance being stoic, and actually being capable of letting out the stresses and emotions. It's masculine to be able to stand steadfast in the face of your struggles without complaining, but at the same time, we don't have to bottle everything up either.
Things will get better, even if it doesn't seem that way at the moment. Keep the faith!
