I want to work on cool shit, but i never know what cool shit to work on.
I see so many amazing people making so many amazing tools and explorations and art and I always feel like I'm missing out. And yet, i never actually do anything about it, not for lack of trying but for lack of any creative, cool ideas i have on my own.
I want to explore and share and discuss with peers. i want to contribute something back to the world. but to be perfectly honest... most of the time when i see cool projects and posts from people, i feel so inferior and dumb.
Any idea i come up with on my own feels like just a variation of a todo app (i.e. something that is so incredibly basic and lame and has no value)
I'll often blame it on the fact that i only "know" javascript or that I did not get a education in computer science or that i don't know how the entire computing stack is composed, but none of those arguments hold up when i look around and see so many cool creative projects using javascript or lua or even just simple web pages.
The problem is me. I just clearly don't have what it takes.
I have the frustrations of not being satisfied with the mundane work i do but clearly do not have the drive or creativity to do something about it.
I guess in a sense you can say i'm just a poser trying to pretend to be someone i am not.
In this modern age with so abundance of technology, I have all the tools at my disposal to do something creative, rewarding, energizing, fulfilling and yet... i always end up drawing a blank.
The problem is me. I am the problem.
256k
npub1mq…tarfp
2025-02-10 14:29:14 UTC
Author Public Key
npub1mqr6f7aflfdk0gtdedp8eqmeupwu6r08z933v0v0prfvsjjmqgqsctarfpSeen on
wss://relay.momostr.pinkPublished at
2025-02-10 14:29:14 UTCEvent JSON
{
"id": "e65766cc89161be4baf76d0230785bb37e53b97943c778d8150e29bae275d505",
"pubkey": "d807a4fba9fa5b67a16dcb427c8379e05dcd0de71163163d8f08d2c84a5b0201",
"created_at": 1739197754,
"kind": 1,
"tags": [
[
"content-warning",
"thoughts on creative work and self worth issues"
],
[
"proxy",
"https://merveilles.town/@256k/113980064012318399",
"web"
],
[
"proxy",
"https://merveilles.town/users/256k/statuses/113980064012318399",
"activitypub"
],
[
"L",
"pink.momostr"
],
[
"l",
"pink.momostr.activitypub:https://merveilles.town/users/256k/statuses/113980064012318399",
"pink.momostr"
],
[
"-"
]
],
"content": "I want to work on cool shit, but i never know what cool shit to work on. \n\nI see so many amazing people making so many amazing tools and explorations and art and I always feel like I'm missing out. And yet, i never actually do anything about it, not for lack of trying but for lack of any creative, cool ideas i have on my own. \n\nI want to explore and share and discuss with peers. i want to contribute something back to the world. but to be perfectly honest... most of the time when i see cool projects and posts from people, i feel so inferior and dumb. \n\nAny idea i come up with on my own feels like just a variation of a todo app (i.e. something that is so incredibly basic and lame and has no value) \n\nI'll often blame it on the fact that i only \"know\" javascript or that I did not get a education in computer science or that i don't know how the entire computing stack is composed, but none of those arguments hold up when i look around and see so many cool creative projects using javascript or lua or even just simple web pages. \n\nThe problem is me. I just clearly don't have what it takes. \nI have the frustrations of not being satisfied with the mundane work i do but clearly do not have the drive or creativity to do something about it. \n\nI guess in a sense you can say i'm just a poser trying to pretend to be someone i am not. \n\nIn this modern age with so abundance of technology, I have all the tools at my disposal to do something creative, rewarding, energizing, fulfilling and yet... i always end up drawing a blank.\n\nThe problem is me. I am the problem.",
"sig": "0d7d8b10f446823cc121c96139860fbdbfd8ad069b70932cf5a9f05e420ff389d9021d0392970a752be8edd9ac3ed6ed1938213711b7eb48530247a805e1776c"
}