aqua • ♥️ on Nostr: cunnie is rlly tingly … no idea what’s gonna happen to the front !! im thinking ...

cunnie is rlly tingly … no idea what’s gonna happen to the front !! im thinking abt because of the stuff we hide our partner system doesn’t trust us & is scared for us but !! at the same time they think it would be healthier if we just wanted to get better & stopped talking to freaks or peds & stopped trying to get worse and worse trauma …

but part of me wants to get worse, i want to be the eternal victim , no sense of time or access to clocks , kept in an apartment to be infantalized and used and bruised and marked and starved and only fed toddler portions from toddler ware … anything but time moving … anything but that … existential thoughts of wanting that & to be programmed more and more until it’s bad enough…