People grow and change, and trans people can grow and change even more. There's nothing wrong with you for knowing that you want full breasts, or a thick ass, or admitting that you want your crotch to be different.
Think of it as customization.
And those women are beautiful too. Those women who you might be a little afraid of becoming. Cis girls go through this earlier and differently but they go through it too. Because of course you're afraid of becoming a woman in a world that hates women.
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