Socializing is exercise: it sucks until it pays off, and it still sucks because you have to maintain it.
It's not supposed to feel good to do something you're bad at, otherwise you'd suck forever.
We're awash in the most beautiful women and most impossibly idealic characters as otaku, as weaboo, as nerds, and it's easy to lose sight of how detached any of this is from reality.
Accept yourself, accept the people around you who accept you, and remember that you decide what matters.
