Some part of my mind that is terrified to lose that side of me.
I used to be defined by my work, until I found kink and people like me.
But I lost my job, my stability, my spark, and I'm scared of losing that too.
I both want to stop existing and desperately want to find meaning to my existence
Xantw0 ⊗⊘
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2026-08-19 00:37:11 UTC
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