AFK4rma on Nostr: I tried stoicism, it's a wonderful philosophy which helped me so much in my life. But ...

I tried stoicism, it's a wonderful philosophy which helped me so much in my life.

But it didn't help me accept who I'm told I am. I never found myself in the ♂ gender. I tried and tried so hard to fit in it, so hard I hated myself to not being able to "just" be what everyone want me to be.
Stoicism helped me on that only by letting me think for years that "it is what it is" and that the only solution I had was to barely tolerate the individual I am, to just be this default human an just exist in my head.