I get triggered when someone, to protect a friend, makes fun of someone else, or try to diminish the person. I really don't see how it can make the hurt person feel better. it's just an attempt of distraction from what the person feels. that just keeps the feeling hidden and it will come out somehow and when it comes who will be there for the hurt person?
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I know there's something for me to see within myself about it. maybe the way I treat myself is full of cruelty when I make mistakes, when I'm not aware of myself, when I'm lost in vanity. but that's always an invite for compassion. an invite to drop this way of talking to myself and also stop judging what I've been doing that puts me down. an invite to just accept that I have this inner dialogue without thinking I'm stupid or that I waste my time with that. and also accept there I'm trying just to show you something I do everyday - observe myself and be radically compromised with my triggers. and accept that I run away from myself doing that.
when I do this I remember I can just feel what is coming.
pollyanna
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