Burnout recovery leave, day 6:
I'm meditating more than usual. At this point, it's not helping.
I'll probably end the next three months either with some new stupid human trick or a portable gaming device. Lenovo Legion Go S seems nice.
I used to meditate until I could feel arbitrary muscles or body parts. Then I'd meditate until muscle tension released. Then I'd meditate until I accepted that the chaotic color swirls and patterns when I close my eyes would never stop moving (probably because of tinnitus+synaesthesia).
I realized this week that the good meditation stopping point these days consistently coincides with when I can feel the tension and vibrations from my creaky fingers. I don't have arthritis but I am likely heading that direction.
#BurnoutRecovery
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