Something I need to get off my chest here.
I have been an activist for more than 30 years. Often working alone, sometimes with a partner, but working nonetheless.
The basis of everything I have done or attempted was hope. Is hope.
If I don't hope I can make a change, then why am I fighting for change? If it's hopeless, why not give up and do something more fun with my time and energy? I'm disabled. I have limited time and energy already. But I'm willing to give them in service of my community.
But I need - NEED - to have hope that it can succeed. Not that it must. My first ever action failed completely. Publicly humiliatingly. Same with my second action. Again, a total failure, the legislation not passed, no help for the community.
So I know failure. My third action? It worked. And I had a string of successes. And then some failure. And more success. And so on.
Obviously, I know that not every time I take on a project, that I will win. I'm good at what I do, and I win more than I lose, but it's close.
But in order to keep doing that, to keep being who I am, I *need* hope. Without it, I'm nothing.
So when I see people whose only goal is to spread defeatist propaganda - which is to say, fascist propaganda, since if you're telling me I can't win, then you're doing their job for them - I can't spend time around them.
This is too big a fight for that. We're playing with literal lives this time. The stakes are WAY too high to be around people who think we're all going to lose.
So if you can't stop yourself from writing it...can you at least CW the ones that are going to be doomerist? I don't even care if you use the CW feature to do it, keep it open if you want, but write that CW at the top.
Because I don't need to take psychic damage from my own side. I'm taking enough from the other side, with their threats and so on. I've faced those for 30 years. I can hack it.
But I can't hack fascist agitprop from our people.
Please. This isn't a game.
Cait the Proud Trans Woman
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