npub1j2yjk9gwrjfhhx0vpc8j9mvp5mpelc4ku2pgqm0qaqg5eneqnq0shrggdc (npub1j2y…ggdc) I got this thing, that is a part of my condition (i'm actually starting to realize I REALLY AM schizophrenic)
But anyway - i get this issue in my fucked up brain (sometimes it starts to embark) THAT i think things i DON'T WANT TO THINK, but my brain thinks it anyway..
It's torment... Like if a woman steps on the bus, and she's a little big/fat - then the thought pops into my head; "damn, how fat that girl is!" - but i just want to see a woman, i don't want my brain to comment about her..