Diyana on Nostr: 9 years ago a dentist mutilated my smile... Today is just another day I got ...

9 years ago a dentist mutilated my smile... Today is just another day I got re-triggered. She's just there living in the back of my psyche never too far... When I brush my teeth she is often there and especially when I attempt to record a talking video (which I usually stop before I start killing my creative spark because the first thing I see is my mutilated row of lower teeth and the her... Immediately she's back in my awareness and I am right back on that dentist chair with my mouth strapped and she is right there doing things I didn't go in for or consent to. And now for the longest time trying to just accept and then anticipate that one day I'll be remedied.

Nicole Shanklin DMD. What a fucking asshole.

The amount of resentment I hold for this woman in my body seems to be endless and so hard to release and I am trying man I am really trying. 😭😭😭😭 She stole my physical identity wrecklessly and I am the one that gets to live with it every day.

Maybe if I write about it more it can help me heal and I can express freely again.

I really do hate her. I fucking hate her. That's the truth and I wish I didn't and that this did leave my soma for good. 😭