It's super fucked up what just happened to me. I was having an imaginary argument in the shower (which I do a lot) but then the other guy's argument struck me at the core of my being. No comeback whatsoever to that devastating observation.
I avoid good experiences from bad things because other people believe that experiences themselves have inherent value. However I allow bad experiences from good things because I personally believe that experiences themselves have no inherent value. Like... isn't that a contradiction? In one case I'm acting based on other people's beliefs, and in the other case I'm acting based on my own beliefs. Shouldn't I just choose one and stick with it? Because at this point it seems like I just hate good experiences and like bad experiences. I refuse to accept that, but it would be really nice to have SOMETHING I could point to showing that's not the case.
If you argue against yourself and lose then does that make you good at arguing or bad at arguing?
Scoundrel
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