Currently reading Swole by Michael Andor Brodeur (thanks to Kurt Bearington (npub1r2n…0guy) and James (npub1e4g…k4fy) for the rec) and holy wow do I feel seen here.
"Additionally, lifting weights has given me a greater sense of physical stability and personal security. For a gay guy, muscles function as both attractant and repellant, as armor and invitation."
"I enjoy being a secret softie in a hard body. ... I like the idea of form as a gentle betrayal, a decoy, a shell."
And that's just the intro and first chapter!