my partner passed away yesterday morning, shortly before 1am she took her last breath.
less than two months ago we thought she was cancer free, she was actually so excited about that, the oncologist said that her initial tumor was gone completely only for the cancer to return in a different part of her brain and spine a month later.
my partners downwards decline started about a month and a half ago with repeated visits to a local emergency room, the first visit was for extremely high ammonia levels causing an altered mental state, the next visit was for elevated lactic acid levels causing an alterered mental state. each of those hospital visits involved a lot of tests, iv medications, and a lot of other things that were just very stressful for my partner.
The last hospital visit before my partner was placed on hospice care was to the county hospital that is a part of the same local health care system my partner recieved all of her cancer care from, she was finally able to get treated by doctors she had seen before and they determined that my partner had a new mass forming near her brain stem and spinal cord. my partners cognitive abilities and speech slowly began to degrade the week that she was in this hospital ICU, by the time they determine that there is nothing they can do my partner can barely hear and has trouble reading even with her glasses.
by the time my partner is sent home to start in-home hospice care she can no longer swallow properly and sometimes aspirated while trying to swallow soft foods and drinks.
her last days with us were very hard for me, I gave her all of her medicine around the clock as scheduled. some of them she hated taking but they helped make her more comfortable so I begged her to take them while she was still coherent enough to read messages I would write out for her to read. she was on a heavy regiment of pain medication and steroids to help with brain swelling and headaches caused by that, all of the medication seemed to help so in a way I am glad she did not feel too much pain and suffering in the end but I am still deeply upset and sad that it all ended this way, now all I have is my dog.
Renko :snep: :therian_pansexual:
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