milchmann on Nostr: i wake up at 5 in the morning, take 2 hours on the train, go to work, it is ...

i wake up at 5 in the morning, take 2 hours on the train, go to work, it is stressful, it is stressful, 2 hours on the train, i am exhausted, i come home at 7:30 to no food, i am hated at home, they want me gone, they tell me i doomed them, they tell me i shamed them, they tell me i will burn in hell, im broke, i still have to wait for them to pay me so i can buy food for myself, i have to sleep at 9.

i can't do this anymore, im tired, my parents hate me my job is stressful only 3 cycles of this and im already tired, i am exhausted, those apprentices now will have to rely on me, their futures will depend on me, i wish i could just dissappear.