That's exactly what I am feeling. Facing the social problems that was really hard to face and as disabled person, I really fucked up.
While I am feeling the freedom for doing anything I want, in other side I also feel the loneliness that might leading me into the sickness that I was facing a few months ago, especially while I am facing high fever, my brain also fucked up. And even I can't do anything that time.
The social disconnection that I face is not an big issue for me, since I know those people aren't suit with me. But what bothers me are the people that I face, only few people who cares with my condition and some of them is trolling in front of me who can't take an joke (unless I face the joke that might funny for me but not for them).
The question where it was stuck in my mind, Am I disconnected from the world? Since my first internet usage at 18 years ago while I am still 3 years old, I can see the world and I feel happy that I can learn anything from there, but in early 2020s, I feel disconnected from some society that didn't accept my presence, until now. Maybe the answer is yes when I looking at the society that already rejected me without any clear reason, but otherwise says no when I faced the society that accept me and cares about my the conditon that I face.
Well, after the first time I know the fediverse, I feel great that finally I can speak anything from what've been stuck on inside my brain. But I also face the challenge when I look at the people on fediverse versus people on Elon's Twitter.
The loneliness that I face is really serious and it affects my health from diabetes to high blood pressure.
James Ed Randson :opensuse: :fedora: :linux: :ubuntu:
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