🌧️「lil howler」🌟 on Nostr: Gonna be bringing up some of my (real, actual) bladder symptoms I've been ...

Gonna be bringing up some of my (real, actual) bladder symptoms I've been experiencing for the last, like, ten years to my doc at our appointment in a couple weeks.

I haven't brough em up till this point because I've only had a family doctor for a little under a year, and this is kind of embarrassing to bring up. But mostly, internally, I've been conflicted on if I want to bring some stuff up because it's actually a problem, or because it would ALSO service my kink. Like, the fact that there's the potential for a medical action to not just bring me back up to the standard human baseline, but also make me feel good in ways that the doctor doesn't account for makes me feel weird an undeserving.

Medical stuff is weird! I'm mostly healthy enough that any time I probably SHOULD go to the doc about something, I'm like "ehhhh other people probably need it more".

I don't want to entirely get deep on the weird bladder stuff, but it would make sense for me to get a couple blood tests and potentially tested for diabetes, and COULD also result in a prescription for diapers. That last part is really what's halted me this entire time because if the doc found out that this would also make me feel good in ways beyond medical, then he might suspect ulterior motive and be less inclined to help, but it kinda just services two different parts of me.

I've mulled it over for a few months, and I figure that I just need to tell him about these symptoms and get some tests done. So long as I don't lie, or make up symptoms, I'm not breaking any pact of doctor-patient trust I don't think. Some people enjoy being in casts, that doesn't mean they shouldn't get a cast put on for a broken bone.

I dunno, I'm thinking out loud because that's what this place is for. Bottom line is:<li>I have weird bladder symptoms that I shouldn't have for my age</li><li>I'm not pursuing this for kink reasons</li><li>I've done some self-testing with taking breaks from my other meds to make sure this isn't connected to those, but the timeline of this occurring and getting worse over the last ten years wouldn't lead me to believe that anyway</li><li>I have to get up multiple times a night to pee if I'm not protected or<ul><li>I have to drink less water to prevent accidents at night, which I hate doing because I'm a thirsty fella</li></ul></li><li>I should tell my doc about this (and my other) symptoms to get properly tested</li><li>I have the potential of lining up my physical and mental health in one neat scrip</li>

Thankfully this stuff causes me no pain or anything, but I AM getting to the age where getting stuff found and taken care of early really pays off. Also, this is Canada, things like this aren't going to increase any invisible insurance premiums or cost me a bunch of money or fuck up medical records or anything