Lex on Nostr: Due to joining this new community I'm being subjected to new things that I hadn't put ...

Due to joining this new community I'm being subjected to new things that I hadn't put much thought and time into before (like crypto and lightning).. I feel like there is some kind of expectation or common-mindedness developed, probably rightfuly so, however I can't help but feel myself adapting and changing as a result (setting up a wallet and zapping), and I don't know where it leads. Maybe I just overthink things, or worry too much. Maybe all of it doesn't really matter as much as I'd like to think that it does. Like why am I even writing this? It is starting to not make any sense to me the more I think about it and the more I write things like this- I need to find a way to use this thing better or I shouldn't use it at all. 😮