Mickey Red Panda on Nostr: Actually I just thought about it, the little thing I'm going through is an irrational ...

Actually I just thought about it, the little thing I'm going through is an irrational OCD tick, which also means it's very much real in a mental disorder kind of way. So with OCD I've learned things needing to happening irrationally, doesn't mean I don't understand how irrational it is. It is, and I hate that it is, and I hate I have to do something illogical to get certain things down. Like I can't cook until I do all the dishes. or I can't little unless someone else wants me to little, but if it doesn't go step one to step 2, I can't explain it, but something will always go wrong. It's not me asking to fulfill a fantasy, or wanting to rope someone in, and why I leave it open to those who are willing to do it, instead of demanding one person do it, because equally to me, it's just as annoying that I need to ask, because I want to just be easy as pad up and do something little, but I can't because everything will go wrong if I do. and it's frustrating having that mental disorder. I've had PTSD OCD since October 2022 when I woke up from my Coma, and everything I ask has been a byproduct of a problem that has come up from that coma.