caseyfrank on Nostr: Feeling trapped in work I don't love. Dreaming of a different kind of life. ...

Feeling trapped in work I don't love.
Dreaming of a different kind of life.
Fascinated by technology, craving nature.
Aware enough to know something is wrong.
Not sure how to build the bridge.

I'm realizing my visionary self has an expiration date most days.

Retreating to the jungle for a week and feeling clear and optimistic felt great. The reality on the ground back home is much different. The contrast is sharp. The bridge out is not.

One hard conversation. One look at the bank account. One moment of "how am I going to pull this off" — and the version of me who can see a better future just logs off.

What's left is a guy just getting through the day.

I'll keep building anyway. Even if it feels like I'm starting over again and again.