Nostr notes by Emilie Ciortrans :dude_stare: :yandere_knife:

what a fun coincidence... I'm a thirty percent bodyfat woman

2026-03-31T04:28:32Z

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what a fun coincidence... I'm a thirty percent bodyfat woman

see an issue for me is that I find being fat... amenable... and I ...

2026-03-31T04:24:59Z

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see an issue for me is that I find being fat... amenable... and I doubt I would pass otherwise

I can but it makes me miserable. probably because I am not doing ...

2026-03-31T04:22:38Z

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I can but it makes me miserable. probably because I am not doing the warrior thing despite probably literally getting joint damage from wanting to go full Kalki on this calamitous kalpa

damn that would be sick. alas antipsychotics given to me by asura ...

2026-03-31T04:21:09Z

In reply to nevent1q…vfpk
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damn that would be sick. alas antipsychotics given to me by asura psychiatrists killed my twink era before it even began

I don't think I handle chastity/celibacy well enough for that ...

2026-03-31T04:18:46Z

In reply to nevent1q…ku5d
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I don't think I handle chastity/celibacy well enough for that tragically

Getting nailed to a cross on Good Friday so I can do that ...

2026-03-31T04:11:58Z

Getting nailed to a cross on Good Friday so I can do that Christian kavadi and aura farm on BMEZINE

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2026-03-31T04:06:49Z

love learning, want to burn down all schools

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2026-03-29T00:46:17Z

https://astrotalk.com/mantras/kali-mantra start saying that all ...

2026-03-26T22:54:26Z

In reply to nevent1q…gkrc
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https://astrotalk.com/mantras/kali-mantra start saying that all the time and you'll get to meet Maa sooner rather than later

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2026-03-26T22:37:47Z

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2026-03-26T22:29:54Z

it's called the Exorcism of the Gerasene Demoniac. yeah ...

2026-03-23T03:24:35Z

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it's called the Exorcism of the Gerasene Demoniac. yeah it's kinda weird and probably decontextualised so that nowadays it just comes off as another Jesus aura farming moment

can you basically believe in Kashmiri Shaivism but still be ...

2026-03-23T03:03:40Z

can you basically believe in Kashmiri Shaivism but still be Anglican? discuss

think of it this way. when you play a rpg or something is it more ...

2026-03-23T03:01:38Z

In reply to nevent1q…z6hk
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think of it this way. when you play a rpg or something is it more fun to have your PCs sit back and eat like. turkey drumsticks or potato chips or cthulhu cheez-its or is it more fun to have them risk their asses trying to fight (or seduce) the big beautiful bad guy (gender neutral)? obviously the insane adventure is more fun! so basically Brahman is playing a massively multiplayer roleplaying game while being the server, the players, the mods, the hackers and the YouTubers simultaneously

well yes they are but like, not in the way people think. in fact ...

2026-03-23T02:25:05Z

In reply to nevent1q…4kfg
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well yes they are but like, not in the way people think. in fact I would say many anarchists and revolutionaries etc are more prone to doing actual Shani pooja (coming up with bureaucratic rules and accidentally empowering power by fighting it in the dumbest ways) than your average reactionary (who often has more in common with the bacchae or gnostics than the roman imperial cults etc). To be fair according to Mike Magee (founder of the tech rag the inquirer and thelemic and tantric adept) claimed Uranus was a "higher vibration" of Mercury, i.e., Mercury but more intense, and the age of Aquarius -- ruled by Uranus -- would be dominated by unfeeling, absolute logic, intellectualism and be somewhat antithetical to the Piscean age that proceeded it

i don't care about beating roguelikes I just like exploring ...

2026-03-23T02:09:34Z

In reply to nevent1q…3mx5
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i don't care about beating roguelikes I just like exploring and getting as deep as I can and if I manage to beat it cool. just like samsara

one of my most held insane beliefs is steve jobs being part of ...

2026-03-23T02:06:25Z

one of my most held insane beliefs is steve jobs being part of the official uranian street team welcoming in the age of aquarius by creating the beach ball i (eye) mac coloured "bondi blue" (like uranus, ruler of aquarius) to open the internet (if you do not understand the aquarianess of the internet why are you n the fediverse) to the masses

no it's just my overall impression. I just remember in one of ...

2026-03-23T02:01:06Z

In reply to nevent1q…ve67
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no it's just my overall impression. I just remember in one of them I was a chaos character that prayed too much and got a snazzy elephant nose and a reduction in level

the last time I played them I still had my OEM nads but vaguely. ...

2026-03-23T01:58:02Z

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the last time I played them I still had my OEM nads but vaguely. Angband is creamy roguelike butter. Moria is crunchy. I think.

if you like moria more does that make you non-binary

2026-03-23T01:55:32Z

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if you like moria more does that make you non-binary

have not taken any, this just happens when i get one

2026-03-22T00:52:03Z

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have not taken any, this just happens when i get one

why do migraines make me so insanely horny that I get near ...

2026-03-22T00:44:20Z

why do migraines make me so insanely horny that I get near priapism? which is kinda amazing given my age and how long I have been on mtf hrt but also insanely dysphoria inducing.

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2026-03-21T01:14:48Z

"eh" is just canadian for "innit"

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2026-03-16T17:42:05Z

fascism is tamasic pessimism. communism is tamasic optimism. ...

2026-03-14T23:05:35Z

fascism is tamasic pessimism. communism is tamasic optimism. capitalism is rajasic pessimism. social democracy is rajasic optimism. nightwalkerism is sattvic pessimism. becoming-schizo is sattvic optimisim

"I used to be able to take the analytic div of nontrivial ...

2026-03-11T20:42:08Z

In reply to nevent1q…uw6x
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"I used to be able to take the analytic div of nontrivial multidimensional functions like you... but then I took a woman's hand to the boob"

my mom when I was nine: "How could you forget what five times ...

2026-03-11T20:04:06Z

my mom when I was nine: "How could you forget what five times five is? *thwack* Don't you know you have to learn calculus and shit if you don't want to be a failure in life? *smack*

me decades later, having learnt shittonnes of math but not exactly being employable and also knowing people who are bereft of such knowledge making more than her: turns out there's more to life than calculus

I do shit like that on the reg. being permadissociated has its ...

2026-03-11T00:55:11Z

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I do shit like that on the reg. being permadissociated has its advantages

yep one whole ball

2026-03-11T00:52:06Z

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yep one whole ball

diy'd a left hemiorchiectomy in may of '09

2026-03-11T00:02:43Z

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diy'd a left hemiorchiectomy in may of '09

when the when the focus medication makes you focus on your gender ...

2026-03-10T23:58:04Z

when the when the focus medication makes you focus on your gender shit so hard it breaks through the protective layer of dissociation and now you are desperately trying not to perform more self surgery even though the self surgery demon is looking pretty good because you are not relieving yourself because of aforementioned unfortunate focus

don't forget the Lemures and the Old Ones and the Aedra and ...

2026-03-10T20:50:24Z

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don't forget the Lemures and the Old Ones and the Aedra and every canon human pantheon and

my logic more or less ...

2026-03-10T20:32:25Z

my logic more or less

if he's well behaved and capable of sustaining himself ...

2026-03-09T02:12:09Z

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if he's well behaved and capable of sustaining himself without industrial society we can make an exception

you have one of the most gorgeous voices I've yet heard. ...

2026-03-02T21:04:38Z

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you have one of the most gorgeous voices I've yet heard. fabulous accent

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2026-02-10T15:07:01Z

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2026-01-31T02:17:56Z

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2026-01-27T15:33:47Z

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2025-12-07T01:11:40Z

okay another go at this shit

anyway if you're gonna be a Satanist please do it right. join ...

2025-11-27T02:15:12Z

anyway if you're gonna be a Satanist please do it right. join the Temple of Set at least or something

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2025-11-23T02:41:00Z

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2025-11-07T14:26:23Z

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2025-11-06T01:29:49Z

"The true essence of femininity is not this bullshit tradwife ...

2025-10-13T01:53:13Z

"The true essence of femininity is not this bullshit tradwife shit or this liberal go-getter business girl tripe. It's not being a submissive, petite thing waiting for daddy's dick to submit. Inside every woman is a black hole waiting to rise out and rent everything around her asunder, a spiritual vagina dentata ripping apart society, men, children, space time... even thought itself. The true measure of a woman is how many people she sends to the grave not births into the world, how many litres of blood she dines on, not how much milk she makes. How many men's headless corpses she delivers to the Goddess within."

you don't know much about xenofemme do you

2025-10-13T01:18:10Z

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you don't know much about xenofemme do you

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2025-10-13T01:14:15Z

is this furry a fucking Dominican monk ...

2025-10-09T13:15:35Z

is this furry a fucking Dominican monk

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2025-10-03T14:30:56Z

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2025-09-29T02:42:50Z

any recommendations for a rugged smartphone with a 4" screen? ...

2025-09-19T00:57:33Z

any recommendations for a rugged smartphone with a 4" screen? preferably android 12+ and 5G, certified keistering performance a plus too (the prison pocket shouldn't just be for prison anymore)

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2025-09-16T00:44:52Z

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2025-08-27T19:37:58Z

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2025-08-27T00:37:25Z

we talk about the dangers of porn addiction but what about the ...

2025-08-19T17:52:11Z

we talk about the dangers of porn addiction but what about the dangers of book addiction? discourse addiction? addiction to sucking in esoteric data as a kind of numbing to the possibilities of real life as a being-in-the-world? What's that? It "increases shareholder value" to ensure "the youth are properly conditioned for a world of work where everything is an exercise in pointless symbol shunting?" yeah okay oversocializer

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2025-08-11T18:54:39Z

I keep forgetting people get freaked out about things like school ...

2025-08-01T16:20:00Z

I keep forgetting people get freaked out about things like school shooters and serial killers for some reason. not a good introductory convo apparently

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2025-07-31T01:05:17Z

the psychos are advancing in their assaults on us in their ...

2025-07-25T12:47:41Z

the psychos are advancing in their assaults on us in their neurotype rahowa:
https://scitechdaily.com/groundbreaking-study-identifies-four-biologically-distinct-autism-subtypes/

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2025-07-25T00:00:21Z

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2025-07-24T14:09:40Z

individualistic prepper fantasy is only enabled by the society ...

2025-07-21T15:57:13Z

individualistic prepper fantasy is only enabled by the society whose destruction makes you slaver at the mouth. The high intesity CQB LVPO RAT EMFH YOYO ROFLMAO BBQ TEOTWAWKI scenario you're dreaming of where you shoot at everyone has you dead in a month. Maybe half a year, tops.

Instead you're gonna have to figure out how to get water and heat and FOOD and clothing repairs and stuff to wipe your ass with. And none of that comes in slick packages pushed by glamorous manly-man gay chicken playing youtube gear queers in flannel, bro. You wanna survive, man? Gonna have to learn how to solder and knit and braze and sow and sew and

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2025-07-19T14:12:23Z

engineering's whole shtick is trying to create a limited ...

2025-06-14T13:31:53Z

engineering's whole shtick is trying to create a limited domain of linear behaviour in a world that is completely and utterly nonlinear, deterministic yet unpredictable. in this they have chosen an eternally futile fight with a foe that is interminably implacable

I would love to move to Europe but my only qualifications are ...

2025-06-09T22:25:32Z

I would love to move to Europe but my only qualifications are being an insane esoteric lore keeper/disable menace to society. is there anyway to get a visa or do I have to wait for Canada to join Schengen?

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2025-05-18T11:01:37Z