Arwalk on Nostr: Life is meaningless with a kid with ADHD. You can't do anything for yourself, as all ...

Life is meaningless with a kid with ADHD. You can't do anything for yourself, as all your life is devoted to just handling the kid. You can't go to any social gathering, because he will invariably bring shame to you, and you will look like a terrible parent. You can't even talk to your partner anymore, as none of you has any time to do anything worth talking about. You can't even free your mind when he's not here, because at school his teachers will hate him and make him feel miserable, even if he doesn't deserve it.

I hate my life so fucking much. I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to get out of the bed. I don't want to go to work. I don't want to come back to work.

I don't deserve all the shit that has been happening to me since my son was born. None of it was fair. He never deserved to have a heart problem, and he never deserved to have his brain so fucked up that he just pushes everyone around him to their limit. And I never deserved to live all of this.

I want to spend time with the person i love again. I want to spend time with myself. I want another life.